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For everyone: I first started seeing my psychiatrist in 1998. I wrote this poem about him and therapy twenty-five years ago. As you can see, I didn't trust him at the beginning. I know now that he did and doe's care. I hope someone can relate and it's not too negative for here!

@REDLINEZ750 Here's another one. Are you okay? I'm being brave by putting it up!

Therapist

Do you laugh behind my back?

I doubt that you care less

How do you look upon my life?

Pathetic, I would guess

Did you ever give a thought

until I walk on through?

Or am I just another one

waiting patiently in queue?

You hide behind your doctor's mask

I know that's it's not you

I wonder what you're really like

Is what I see all true?

I want to trust and believe in you

But I can't believe you care

You keep your distance emotionally

and personally, never share

I am depressed and miserable

I feel unstable too

Are you glad when time is up

I wish I really knew

I'm so angry, I've no control

You won't open up to me

You have the power, I'm vulnerable

I hate the pain, you see

I sit with this every week

and I'm still compelled to come

My need for love is crushing me

I'm here for just a crumb

Does my pain amuse you so?

Is that behind your smile?

I want control that you won't give

I need to feel worthwhile

I have failed in my eyes

and it brings up all the past

Not wanted and unlovable

It's the role I have been cast

I love and hate you passionately

You hold some king of spell

Damn you for your ethics, [named removed by moderator]

But thank you too, as well

I'm feeling now, you wanted that

Though I can't say I'm impressed

I have to trust what you want

Is to see me at my best!

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@REDLINEZ750 @Shaz51 @AlwaysMyself @DownMoreThanUp @RebelliousAngel @Appleblossom and everyone else who might be on here!

I wrote all my poems around 30 years ago. This is one about my memories of the 70's.

THE 70's

Demonstrations, feminism

Turbulence and war

Woman and housewives

wanting something more

Politics, bye bye Gough

Walking on the moon

Vietnam, Watergate

Jesus coming soon

Disco's and afro's

Halter tops and flares

Platform shoes and paisley

Lectures and stares

Marijuana, mushie's

Freedom, love and peace

Confusion, rebellion

Trouble with police

Image and parenting

A picket fence and wife

Tree hugging hiippie's

A different kind of life

Dr Spock said it all

All about us kids

Then he took it back again

At least he made a quid

Laminating, vinal

Bleach, colour TV's

Copper tubs and music

Albums and LP's

Rolling Stones and Abba

The Ted Mulray Gang

Hendrix and Skyhooks

Karen Carpenter sang

Gilligan and the skipper

Lassie, Rin Tin Tin

The Brady Bunch, Homicide

The Beatles and the king

Cults and religions

Manson and Jim Jones

Sharen Tate, wasted lives

Billy Graham groans

Mini skirts, knee high boots

Countdown, satin pants

Woman and equality

Time to take a chance

Men and their long hair

Bandanas round their heads

The classic Ford and Holden fight

Hiding in the shed

Outside, in the dirt

Finding things that move

Grazed knee, wet and tired

Mother left to soothe

Lady like, climbing trees

Hanging upside down

Playground and equipment

Spinning round and round

The 70's -- dig it, be cool

Drive in's, far out man

Dr Who and Star Wars

V dubs and panel vans

I remember the 70's

Rebellious, freedom, fun

The best and worst time I had

When all's been said and done!

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Me too @heartathome

wonderful

sorry, not sure of the spellcheck, but isn’t it Ted Mulry? lol..

🎶😀

not to mention a little sunshine and surf.

💙

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@heartathome

thanks for tag

when I first joined the forum, it took a while to get responses

posting from the intimacy of home to the big wide world..often leaves me feeling very raw and vulnerable but it is wonderful when we feel heard

there weren’t many staff back then, mods or peer workers

there are a lot more users these days

But yes, there can be a high turnover

tagging people and generating threads is a great way to function on here, though some get turned off by bulk tagging. Its hard to please everyone, but mostly there is give and take….

whatever, it has to be meaningful to you

some stay on, some leave

i did stats a while back, and just have a general sense of it

over the years, some people come back

for me, I have grown my social side in the general chats and a more personal thread and working on …. Keeping on going

@REDLINEZ750

I enjoyed the nostalgia

thanks

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Hey @Appleblossom

I'm glad you liked the poem! I think your right on Mulry. I never was very good at spelling. Definitely sunshine but we lived in the bush so never got to be around the ocean except for once with the Far West Scheme. I have a tiny Dept of Housing unit by the ocean now! Very blessed! 🙃

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I'm glad that you enjoyed the poem! Thanks for the information @Appleblossom It IS great when people respond but I understand a new name can be a bit daunting. I also feel vulnerable when I post stuff. How long have you been on SANE? I thought someone told me that it has only been going for four months. I know something started off in 1986 as a help for people with schizophrenia. Good to know this stuff! I expected there to be a high turnover of people. What about staff? Have they stayed around? It would be a difficult job. @REDLINEZ750 don't you disappear!

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This comment has been moved by a moderator to another part of the forum to align with the topic, "Christian Chat"

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There was a clinic in Albert rd South Melbourne , that did interesting work with people dealing with schizophrenia… in the 1980s…

there are a lot of different things around now from schizzyinc… to alt2su to mad studies .. rhythm to recovery R2R…. Curesz… Is a YouTube

I have been logging on to Sane for 10 years. Amazing really. I never expected to last this long, or have the journey I had.

its great you are near the ocean now. I did surf for a few years in late teens til 21. I am more a big city person, though I love the bush. I have a river, bay beaches, grasslands and a few mountains not too far. My activities are mostly city …. And music. I drove across town for a 3 hour rehearsal and lunch at a friend’s house and more music as a duet.

@heartathome

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hey @heartathome your sweet i wont go disappear

better be 2 way street friend🤔😁

im just catching up with things now, hope you had nice day!

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@REDLINEZ750 I've lost your post about the wrought iron table and chairs. I wrote back to you. Can you get me to it again? 😔

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not sure @heartathome i just have go back through pages find it, if memory serves which is a bad bet i was asking where it is in courtyard or lawn area as i was picturing the setting.

i have a thing for that is wrought iron hahaha

looks cool when twisted like liquroice

i will post this one it was written 2017 i think, it was on another thread somewhere a while back a little back i just cant remember which

in light of yours it might be a bit ordinary hahaha

its one of the friendlier ones to read

man its too big i got go chatgpt get it shrunk again i be back

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