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Re: Poem

heartathomeSenior Contributor

Re: Poem

For everyone: I first started seeing my psychiatrist in 1998. I wrote this poem about him and therapy twenty-five years ago. As you can see, I didn't trust him at the beginning. I know now that he did and doe's care. I hope someone can relate and it's not too negative for here!

@REDLINEZ750 Here's another one. Are you okay? I'm being brave by putting it up!

Therapist

Do you laugh behind my back?

I doubt that you care less

How do you look upon my life?

Pathetic, I would guess

Did you ever give a thought

until I walk on through?

Or am I just another one

waiting patiently in queue?

You hide behind your doctor's mask

I know that's it's not you

I wonder what you're really like

Is what I see all true?

I want to trust and believe in you

But I can't believe you care

You keep your distance emotionally

and personally, never share

I am depressed and miserable

I feel unstable too

Are you glad when time is up

I wish I really knew

I'm so angry, I've no control

You won't open up to me

You have the power, I'm vulnerable

I hate the pain, you see

I sit with this every week

and I'm still compelled to come

My need for love is crushing me

I'm here for just a crumb

Does my pain amuse you so?

Is that behind your smile?

I want control that you won't give

I need to feel worthwhile

I have failed in my eyes

and it brings up all the past

Not wanted and unlovable

It's the role I have been cast

I love and hate you passionately

You hold some king of spell

Damn you for your ethics, [named removed by moderator]

But thank you too, as well

I'm feeling now, you wanted that

Though I can't say I'm impressed

I have to trust what you want

Is to see me at my best!

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heartathomeSenior Contributor

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Yeah. I thought you might be on edge or something. There would have to be a lot of emotions going around! @REDLINEZ750 What does 'falling apart' mean, apart from crying, which is a good way to release emotions? What are the symptoms? 😉

I'm not taking my meds till later tonight so I'm here. I don't know how long I'll last but I'm making a cuppa now! I should have a shower but I'm enjoying myself on here. 💛

I've been listening to praise and worship songs for the last two days. It's a good way for me to feel close to God! It's been nice. Now that 'Home and Away' is over for the year, I have no need to watch TV 😂

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor

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Im trying post a pic and bloody things muckin up so it will ne waiting for you when you get up, sorry i missed it will make sense soon

night my friend @heartathome

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heartathomeSenior Contributor

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@REDLINEZ750 I'm not going to bed yet! I'm still wide awake. I haven't taken my meds, and I don't usually sleep without them. I was waiting up to say goodnight and check you were okay. I'll take them at 10.30 so will be asleep before the clock strikes 12 o'clock. 😆 Goodnight, my friend.

All the best for tomorrow! Know I'll be on here thinking about you (that sounds creepy) and I'll be praying for you! Give Pook's a big hug from me. Sending lots of love and hugs. See you on the other side! 💛  

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heartathomeSenior Contributor

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@REDLINEZ750 💛

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor

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this is what stuffed me up @heartathome the picture was being stubborn and i already missed you so made sure i got them on for you when you get up.

night my friend

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor

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wish could post pic how ready i am, put a poc of pooki y on its own page my friend

cars near by frantic anxiety pooky what i have forgot try post before hand phone if not will miss my hippie chick mate @heartathome

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heartathomeSenior Contributor

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I know leaving Pooky would have been so incredibly hard and sad and looking ahead is the unknown. I'm very proud of you for doing it.

My dad once gave me a small poster with these words. I have no idea why I'm sending it. I hope you get it before you go inside.

Today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday... and all is well! 💛

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor

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ahhhh nah that was in relation to havung him wuth me @AlwaysMyself i shouldnt of mentioned it and just rocked up so they could ne cutenised rendering them powerless to the presence of the little lion

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor

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thats so good i will make my own poster for it when i can @heartathome

so the insurer gave wrong date to transport company sigh

waiting for driver sihg

psalm 145 18 todays verse its fitting

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