Re: Poem

i used that head for the line you mentioned it haha

I agree with you @REDLINEZ750 This forum is a real-life example of healthy love and support!

I hope I don't stuff it up by being too blunt. 😁 I'm trying to tame my words and how they can come across. It seems like a fine line to me. My psych told me, a few months into therapy, that I didn't need to say everything I think and it's not what I say but how I say it! It was the first time I'd ever heard of such a thing. I'm pretty good these days but if my anxiety gets too much or I feel overwhelmed, my 'bluntness' tends to come out!

I'm glad your session was good. Was it one on one or the group? My group session is on tomorrow afternoon. Laughing and crying are great. Both are needed! Rage not so much. That only complicates things!

My cuppa was great. I had an affogato which is straight coffee poured over ice-cream. Yum! My elderly friend told us the same stories again, but it was lovely to see her face brighten as she was telling us! We're hearing all her stories of the local 'olden days' which is nice.

I'll tell you a story about me skydiving back in the 80's. My son's father was the drop zone pilot, so I used to go out every weekend, at one stage. My skydiving was disastrous! The first time I did it, they had to kick me off the plane because I 'couldn't' let go! 🤭 I've nearly hit a shed. Another time I landed on a plane (on the ground) and the owner wasn't impressed. They suggested that I take up golf! 😆I did do a jump with two instructors from 11,000 feet and went straight into the foetal position. Thankfully, they could catch up to me and stabilise me, reminding me of the position I needed to take. I did skydiving to help my fear of heights. Talk about going to extremes! It didn't help! I still have a fear of heights. 😂

your crazy no one could convince me jump out a perfectly good plane @heartathome

im thinking i should not of posted last few nights aye, i don't want to apologise when i don't know what it was coz it will look like I'm just saying it and would cause more harm than good.

i might be underestimating thinking its just one thing even

forum gets a break tomorrow morning which will be good for the threads, im ok with that truth

when i come back on i will be more mindful and a lot less abrasive

never seen a sign of blunt from you onnce @heartathome

@REDLINEZ750 😂

No. You have nothing to apologise for! I'm glad you've been on and whatever you said was only against yourself! It lets me know what's happening for you at that particular time. You haven't upset me in any way. Do you want me to find it and tag you? I don't want you to go away thinking about the post.

I think you called yourself 'weak as piss' and I disagreed! My Mumma bear comes out when you're hard on yourself because you and that boy inside deserve to be nurtured and loved! Who else is going to do it? When you look in the mirror, can you tell yourself that you love you? I've never got that far 😉 (as yet) but I can now look in the mirror and tell myself that I'm okay (as a person). Better than hating myself! Huge!

Everyone that knows you is going to miss your presence! You know that don't you? I will certainly miss our chats! You haven't seen any bluntness from me, and I haven't seen any abrasive posts from you! Good! I guess we're both still learning and I think we're doing a bl**** good job! 💛

couldnt help it @heartathome

That's hilarious @REDLINEZ750 ! I wish I could send it to him! 😂 He'd get a laugh out of it!

i love your things youve learnt to posy @heartathome

@REDLINEZ750

So, you weren't telling yourself off then; only if you didn't make the call! My bad! I'm really sorry! Please forgive me! 🙏 At least you can go knowing you said nothing wrong! I'm glad you made the call in that case. 💛

I need to do it or I will then rumenate on not doing it and get a voice beating me up for knowing I had to do it and leaving it to late and it's my fault I can't go and I fucked everything up again and all I had to do was ring one person who's only treated me as trauma informed people do yet if it was a text saying saying your weak as piss can't even make a phone call I'd be on the person's face quicker than I knew I left the house aaaarrrrgghhhh

whatever your mind ever tells you @heartathome you never need worry what im thinking coz you do me no harm, if it helps im vocal instantly when crossed, offended or someone being snarky but sneaky about it so if you havent had me say something you know we are good, sorry if that sounds a bit yeah whatever im only trying help you as far as i go

im falling apart a bit

Sorry for delay in response @REDLINEZ750 - work day, then an appointment, then my dogs demanding dinner and making my own too. Just catching up on messages now. Sorry to have worried you today! *big hug* I just wasnt sure because of the comment about "shouldn't have mentioned pookie". 100% all good 🤗. Internet messages can be hard to read for me sometimes lol - i guess thats why i use lots of emoticons 😁🤭😅.

I read your comment something about it being hard for us to upset/hurt each other 🥰. I'm glad you recognise my heart is caring and without harm.