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Re: Poem

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For everyone: I first started seeing my psychiatrist in 1998. I wrote this poem about him and therapy twenty-five years ago. As you can see, I didn't trust him at the beginning. I know now that he did and doe's care. I hope someone can relate and it's not too negative for here!

@REDLINEZ750 Here's another one. Are you okay? I'm being brave by putting it up!

Therapist

Do you laugh behind my back?

I doubt that you care less

How do you look upon my life?

Pathetic, I would guess

Did you ever give a thought

until I walk on through?

Or am I just another one

waiting patiently in queue?

You hide behind your doctor's mask

I know that's it's not you

I wonder what you're really like

Is what I see all true?

I want to trust and believe in you

But I can't believe you care

You keep your distance emotionally

and personally, never share

I am depressed and miserable

I feel unstable too

Are you glad when time is up

I wish I really knew

I'm so angry, I've no control

You won't open up to me

You have the power, I'm vulnerable

I hate the pain, you see

I sit with this every week

and I'm still compelled to come

My need for love is crushing me

I'm here for just a crumb

Does my pain amuse you so?

Is that behind your smile?

I want control that you won't give

I need to feel worthwhile

I have failed in my eyes

and it brings up all the past

Not wanted and unlovable

It's the role I have been cast

I love and hate you passionately

You hold some king of spell

Damn you for your ethics, [named removed by moderator]

But thank you too, as well

I'm feeling now, you wanted that

Though I can't say I'm impressed

I have to trust what you want

Is to see me at my best!

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Thanks @rav3n That makes me feel better knowing we're not in trouble and you will never be angry with me. I do my best, as we all do! It's somehow comforting to know that you can 'own up' to having struggles too! Having the guidance is reassuring and supportive. I do like it. It's just hard to get out of that mindset.

I'll try not to jump next time, when I see you've mentioned me in a post. 😆 Bless you rav3n! See you round, like a record. 😉

Oh, by the way, I'm putting up pictures at the moment because the support button won't work. I emailed them today. It didn't make any difference to my support button. I'll just keep emailing them because I know some people have given up on the button! I think it's sad because I'm sure there would be plenty of people missing out on that support. It's easier to just read and move on and I don't want to see that happen. I don't know. I've got to have something to worry about! 🫤💛

 

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I'm taking my meds, getting ready for bed but wanted to say goodnight. I'm hoping you're okay @REDLINEZ750 ! I know you want to do it! It's an addiction! Don't be so damn hard on yourself! Sorry if that comes across as angry. I'm not but I do wish you would be kinder to yourself and that vulnerable, scared child that you're carrying around with you! Whether you go or not, I'm here for you! 💛

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Hey @REDLINEZ750 just popped by to wish you the absolute best during your time away. You are brave, courageous and strong even when you don't feel it. Your little lion Pookie will be safe and I'm sure he would be telling you to look after yourself first if he could 🥰.

I'm so glad you've got such a caring and supportive friendship with @heartathome and @Bunniekins here. I'm here for you too if ever you want; I've never been scared off by anything you've said - although you'd have to forgive my mostly-ignorance on cars and motorbikes 😉.

See you on the other side of your comms block! Be gentle with yourself, its OK to find things challenging.

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thaml you @AlwaysMyself you have always been nice and an i always enjoy saeeing you are on and interacting with you

your words are appreciated thyank you

i knew i shouldnt of mentioned pooks

psychologist has given me a unscheduled hr at 11am tomorrow

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Support button isn't working again so I'm rebelling and putting up pictures on each reply. I reply to everyone so it's taking me ages! I have a hundred emails to go through, but it will have to wait till the morning. I'm glad you came on tonight @REDLINEZ750 !

 

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grrrrrrrr i thought you were horizontal or would of waited to chat while you were still perpimdicular and if that aint oppsite to horizontal; zero shits are given coz i felt pretty cool pullin a bigger than 7 letter word even if wrong coz wgat matters is i knowed it @heartathome 😁

i woke up to this and never heard it before i thought yeah i let it play then heard the words

MÖWE - Birds Flying High

@Bunniekins @AlwaysMyself @Chasingsunsets @MissGremlin @ENKELI

my faith says your ok heres a random what are the chances type sign

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You going okay @REDLINEZ750, I feel like I missed where you are off to?
Hope you’re alright 🙏

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I stayed up last night to see if you were on @REDLINEZ750 . One of your posts concerned me, and I wanted to know if you were okay. That's probably why I was a bit hard on you, telling you to 'stop being so hard on yourself'.

😂 Knowing a seven-letter word is a laugh! I'm not very articulate and don't know any big words! I'm hopeless at scrabble! That's what happens when you don't take any notice at school and leave early.

This song was called Feeling good. It was originally made famous by Nina Simone in 1965

What a great song to start the day! 💛

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@REDLINEZ750 sorry if I said something wrong or upsetting re: Pookie - wasn't my intent obviously. I can edit my post to remove mention of it if you'd like? Let me know and I will 😊.

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@heartathome

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