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For everyone: I first started seeing my psychiatrist in 1998. I wrote this poem about him and therapy twenty-five years ago. As you can see, I didn't trust him at the beginning. I know now that he did and doe's care. I hope someone can relate and it's not too negative for here!

@REDLINEZ750 Here's another one. Are you okay? I'm being brave by putting it up!

Therapist

Do you laugh behind my back?

I doubt that you care less

How do you look upon my life?

Pathetic, I would guess

Did you ever give a thought

until I walk on through?

Or am I just another one

waiting patiently in queue?

You hide behind your doctor's mask

I know that's it's not you

I wonder what you're really like

Is what I see all true?

I want to trust and believe in you

But I can't believe you care

You keep your distance emotionally

and personally, never share

I am depressed and miserable

I feel unstable too

Are you glad when time is up

I wish I really knew

I'm so angry, I've no control

You won't open up to me

You have the power, I'm vulnerable

I hate the pain, you see

I sit with this every week

and I'm still compelled to come

My need for love is crushing me

I'm here for just a crumb

Does my pain amuse you so?

Is that behind your smile?

I want control that you won't give

I need to feel worthwhile

I have failed in my eyes

and it brings up all the past

Not wanted and unlovable

It's the role I have been cast

I love and hate you passionately

You hold some king of spell

Damn you for your ethics, [named removed by moderator]

But thank you too, as well

I'm feeling now, you wanted that

Though I can't say I'm impressed

I have to trust what you want

Is to see me at my best!

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 @REDLINEZ750 , no matter how messed up you are! 💛

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i got carried away talking motorbikes ion sunset thread @heartathome hrehehe, just ignore it and tell me is your tree topped with angel, star, snowflake or ........

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how did you go on freeway?

i picture you in a small hatch more than a falcon ur commodore @heartathome

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My 'Christmas tree' is like a small Australian tree where the branches hang down so it has no 'top' @REDLINEZ750 I don't have many decorations, but each one is meaningful!

Bike talk. I had little idea what you were talking about. 😆 Like I said somewhere else. You seem to be very mechanically minded! I've got a Holden Barina sedan. I've had it since 2016 and done about 58,000 on it. It's dark grey with sparkles in it. 😁 I hope to catch up with you today. 💛

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You're right @REDLINEZ750 I wouldn't drive a Falcon or Commodore. Too big and too much power! I bought it from a car yard with 46 kilometres on it. The money came from childhood compensation. I've never owned a new car before! The aircon doesn't work on 4 anymore and my sun visor is broken now. It still runs well! It costs a bit to keep it on the road and I'm just doing it! 💛

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@REDLINEZ750 That's me 😂

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i just got on @heartathome i lay back to stretch early morning and woke up at 1pm

something about you makes me smile when i read your words whatever they are aye

sounds like your car is quite tidy if you ever do sell it dont let some car yard screw you over them miles make it worth a bit more than market value and thats what they will try saying is all they get themselves the bastards.👎

i just went straight to oldest missed post by you now im going to go throyugh other pages and see whats what, this one was 8hrs ago im sorry so i havent read more recent ones i will shortly though i hope your having good day my friend

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hello there 😁

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I'm glad that you got a good sleep @REDLINEZ750

It's weird, hey. I love talking to other formites, but I get excited when I see that you're on. I think I might have a SANE crush on you! You get an extra point for Pooky! 😂

I love our conversations, your sense of humour, your honesty and willingness to put yourself out there (where it's open)! Is that scary or creepy? 🤔

I feel partly responsible for your 'messiness', bringing up your past and the sh*** feelings and thoughts that's left you with!

All I can say is that I'm not going anywhere (unless the laptop and phone dies at the same time) I think I've been on most days for the last three months! 😉✅ If Telstra or the electricity goes out...well, that's another story. 🫤

I guess all my tagging and replying to you gets confusing, hey! Woops 😂

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no no slow down them gears from turning in your mind right now please @heartathome

you have only ever brought me good never anything bad, anything i shared was my choice to do so & if it started something i couldnt shut down safely and thought i overshared thats on me my friend......

im glad you said that please know that you contributed zero to my messy state of being

f anything your helping me stay present instead of letting loose & writing next 3 days off completely.

i am very grateful for whatever this is, and yeah i know the crush thing too.

i think because only time looking forward to talking or writing to someone our whole lives has mainly been to a partner so our feelings are tuned to that and on here you also have the mystery element which may well be in my favour 🙃

i have a mask that people easily read as might leave this one alone in person😁

i wont go anywhere either unless its beyond my control unless its a mortality thing which after 2 weeks of not hearing from me i think you can be safe to believe it is so never think i just lost interest or dont care because only you can be heartathome

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