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For everyone: I first started seeing my psychiatrist in 1998. I wrote this poem about him and therapy twenty-five years ago. As you can see, I didn't trust him at the beginning. I know now that he did and doe's care. I hope someone can relate and it's not too negative for here!

@REDLINEZ750 Here's another one. Are you okay? I'm being brave by putting it up!

Therapist

Do you laugh behind my back?

I doubt that you care less

How do you look upon my life?

Pathetic, I would guess

Did you ever give a thought

until I walk on through?

Or am I just another one

waiting patiently in queue?

You hide behind your doctor's mask

I know that's it's not you

I wonder what you're really like

Is what I see all true?

I want to trust and believe in you

But I can't believe you care

You keep your distance emotionally

and personally, never share

I am depressed and miserable

I feel unstable too

Are you glad when time is up

I wish I really knew

I'm so angry, I've no control

You won't open up to me

You have the power, I'm vulnerable

I hate the pain, you see

I sit with this every week

and I'm still compelled to come

My need for love is crushing me

I'm here for just a crumb

Does my pain amuse you so?

Is that behind your smile?

I want control that you won't give

I need to feel worthwhile

I have failed in my eyes

and it brings up all the past

Not wanted and unlovable

It's the role I have been cast

I love and hate you passionately

You hold some king of spell

Damn you for your ethics, [named removed by moderator]

But thank you too, as well

I'm feeling now, you wanted that

Though I can't say I'm impressed

I have to trust what you want

Is to see me at my best!

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Don't worry about not replying all the time @REDLINEZ750 I follow what you post on other threads anyway. Now that's creepy! 😂

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 and that's how I close off an arch @heartathome

 

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I'm back home. My partner has left, and I miss him already @REDLINEZ750 I might see him for a couple of hours over Christmas if they have a family gathering. My son is working on every public holiday over Christmas. Someone is bound to feel sorry for me and invite me somewhere. 😆Otherwise, I will spend it alone, which doesn't really bother me! I'm glad the forum won't be going on holidays over Christmas, though.

The send-off for his brother was special! The siblings took the ashes into the ocean along with white roses. We had different coloured rose petals to throw in the water or scatter on the sand for the oldies.

We all went for lunch at a local pub bistro style. They apparently had a tab at the bar which we weren't aware of. There was $260 left on it when everybody left. They wouldn't return any cash so one sister told them that she'd stay there all night, if she had to, to finish it! 🤭I don't think she'll have to stay that long. 😏 He was a big drinker which attributed to his passing. 😔

I had a cocktail even though I don't usually drink. Bl**** expensive! The girls were happy that I had a drink 'for him'. I don't have a problem with alcohol. Tastes disgusting and I don't like soft drink either. Just give me a coffee! Why did I drink it? Probably for them!

I'll catch up with you on the other threads, so you don't have to repeat yourself! I didn't want to put this up on What's Been Your Highlight Today! 😆 I don't know anywhere else I could post this kind of thing. It could be triggering (even for you)! And who else would be interested in a detailed story about the sendoff of my partner's brother! No one else has opened up to me like you have and I tend to have trouble trusting people who 'I don't know'.

Does that make sense? 💛

@AuntGlow

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you wont trigger me @heartathome i can honestly say that.

dont think theres much to catch on other threads my dear friend i got on late again i may of posted a few not sure im a bit stunned probably the lack of sleep.

im glad it was memorable farewell its tragic to think of someone living to a ripe old age and not being seen off by many.

hey im not going to be alone i don't think at christmas but im going to be in residential care so i will be alone with people around me i spose

dinners just being served i be back in a jiffy

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Using your initiative and being very inventive @REDLINEZ750 The best thing about it is that it works! :ok_hand:Does it help to keep the heat out at all? Is that Pooky trying to get in through the gaps. 😆 Is he able to? 💛

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yeah its pooks, its good he can get in and out and theres ducted air con my rooms designed to be formal dining area its very big so i needed to make it so my room cant just be entered while im gone and i be putting Seq in here too @heartathome

good morning heres a kick start for you to start fridat off hehehe 😁

Would You... ?

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What a song to start the day at 5am @REDLINEZ750

I'd share a bed with Pooky! 😂 I thought I might sleep in later since my partner's left but I'm still getting up at a ridiculous hour. At least I'm getting some sleep!

I hope you have a beautiful day with your little lion!

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hey my friend, not much to do today, too hot

curtains drawn air cons on pooky was under bed coz not real happy with him last night hes sulking @heartathome

how is your morning been?

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@REDLINEZ750 Oh, poor Pooky. He's sulking. 😆 He must have got into big trouble last night! What did he do?

I'm going to see a friend today, pick up my meals for the week and go to the chemist this afternoon.

I put up my Christmas tree last night. I know it's early! I wish I could show you a photo, but my phone isn't synced to my laptop. I needed the memory!

It's 29 degrees today but that's okay for me. I do have my ceiling fan on, though. 💛

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I'm sorry @heartathome I just come by to say I'm not doing too good and realized 8 didn't get back to that post which has really confused me as I remember asking what you put on top of tree and how your day went with friend I must not of posted I'm so sorry l please don't think I couldn't be bothered or anything along them lines my friend

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