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For everyone: I first started seeing my psychiatrist in 1998. I wrote this poem about him and therapy twenty-five years ago. As you can see, I didn't trust him at the beginning. I know now that he did and doe's care. I hope someone can relate and it's not too negative for here!

@REDLINEZ750 Here's another one. Are you okay? I'm being brave by putting it up!

Therapist

Do you laugh behind my back?

I doubt that you care less

How do you look upon my life?

Pathetic, I would guess

Did you ever give a thought

until I walk on through?

Or am I just another one

waiting patiently in queue?

You hide behind your doctor's mask

I know that's it's not you

I wonder what you're really like

Is what I see all true?

I want to trust and believe in you

But I can't believe you care

You keep your distance emotionally

and personally, never share

I am depressed and miserable

I feel unstable too

Are you glad when time is up

I wish I really knew

I'm so angry, I've no control

You won't open up to me

You have the power, I'm vulnerable

I hate the pain, you see

I sit with this every week

and I'm still compelled to come

My need for love is crushing me

I'm here for just a crumb

Does my pain amuse you so?

Is that behind your smile?

I want control that you won't give

I need to feel worthwhile

I have failed in my eyes

and it brings up all the past

Not wanted and unlovable

It's the role I have been cast

I love and hate you passionately

You hold some king of spell

Damn you for your ethics, [named removed by moderator]

But thank you too, as well

I'm feeling now, you wanted that

Though I can't say I'm impressed

I have to trust what you want

Is to see me at my best!

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Hey @REDLINEZ750 I'm excited about you doing my next poem!

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Thanks for telling me about your Daily Bread! I look forward to it!

My verse for today is 2 Cor 4:18 (ICB)

So we set our eyes not on what we cannot see. What we see will last only a short time. But what we cannot see will last forever.

17 days!! That's great! Isn't it said that it takes 3 weeks to make or break a habit?

Tell me how your recovery group goes if you want. I'm interested what the topic will be. Last week's topic was about connection, in my group. I'm pretty sure I can say that.

So, you have hair! 😂

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hey @heartathome im not sure if you put name of next poem on or not somethin was edited though

yip full head of hair haha

thank you for the verse , so much meaning and promise of hope in so few words

today was identity and was actually a deep one for me personally it gave me the space to remember whats really important to me is what is me not what people say

gee day 4 tomorrow is it or 3? im slowly regathering after the last week

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Good morning @REDLINEZ750 Have you got any plans for the day?

I had a whinge about an issue with another conversation and got an email for it. I didn't mention their name, but they guessed I was talking about someone on the forum. That was what was edited. Fair enough too! No whinging about other conversations! 😉

Thanks for sharing the topic of your recovery group. Identity is a huge topic! I'm glad you got something meaningful out of it!

Do you have long or short hair?

Day four for me! Same goal today

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shoulder length @heartathome oh dear trouble in the forums

glad im on your good side hehehe

im surprised i havent riled anyone upstill had a few emails regretfully coz i do try be good

this a little bit why i been out of sorts since last monday

its a longish story but definetly going be miss this ol fella

@Chasingsunsets @tyme @rav3n @Appleblossom @Bunniekins @MissGremlin @fruitisgood @AlwaysMyself @TAB @ENKELI @Glisten @RebelliousAngel @AuntGlow

he had no family from out living them hope it doesnt upset anyone just wanted to show someone always going to miss us even when we feel we are alone so umm i mean well sorry if not well recieved dont be sad he couldnt stand up without effort from OCD hes able leave his last prison now also he never hurt anyone just robbed a few banks in the days it was a thing .

he got shot in hand by roger rogerson so yea he had storys

hope all doing goodish

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@REDLINEZ750 the pic isnt coming up unfortunately..... have you got more tales of his to tell?

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@Bunniekins hugs

@REDLINEZ750 it was great to watch your collaboration with @heartathome with the picture for the poem.

have you started a new routine?

I did a tiny bit of recovery club.

I do like the

Connection

Hope

Identity

Meaning

Empowerment

CHIME model

https://www.monash.edu/__data/assets/pdf_file/0004/3029116/PULSAReveryday-Personal-Recovery-Workbook_2016.pdf

maybe I am too old for the recovery club idk. I have had better luck with quality in other online groups. Just me I guess.

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sounds like the person means a lot to you. he's lucky to have you thinking of him and keeping his memory alive @REDLINEZ750 sending you gentle hugs, hope you're doing goodish too 💙

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Oh, @REDLINEZ750 I'm sorry that you're feeling the pain of grief! I didn't pick up that you were going through anything so, thanks for sharing a part of what's been going on! I've been missing you but can understand why. Was he a relative or friend? He sounds like he was a 'naughty boy' with lots of character! It also seems like he had a tough life! I would have loved to have met him! What do the letters OCD mean in your post? I don't want to make your day any worse, so I won't ask any more questions! I'd love to know a bit more of your relationship with him, and his tales one day. No need to answer! I love the graphics with the poem, by the way! That's really special! 💛 I imagine the graphics are a story within itself.

Me? Trouble? Never!! 😁 I've had to apologize twice on the forum now and I am trying to be good! 😆 I shall try to never presume anything out loud again, but I can't stop my mind from creating stuff up! It's quite interesting how my mind works! I pray for God's comfort, strength and peace for you, my friend! 🙏💙

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Thinking of you and Pooky @REDLINEZ750 ! 💚

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I don't know if you're a hugging man @REDLINEZ750 but I'm sending you one anyway! If only it was that easy, hey! Even someone who hates hugs would do that to feel better!

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