Anyone up?

@avant-garde how are you going there with the tackling of the kitchen? Sorry I dozed off for a short time.

@RebelliousAngel

I'm enjoying my coffee first 😅 almost finished chamber of secrets

@avant-gardeglad you are enjoying a coffee first 🙂.

@RebelliousAngel

I have cleared the right hand side of the sink (while waiting for the next Harry Potter book to download)

@avant-gardenice work 🙂.

I'm still yet to start the first book cos it's unavailable at the moment. I'll get to listen to it eventually 🤣

@RebelliousAngel

My GP asked me something yesterday... I feel like you'll understand...

@avant-garde oh what did your gp ask you?

@RebelliousAngel

What my plans for the future were, now that my situation is more stable... it's something I haven't considered in a very long time...

@avant-garde oh I can really understand how hard it is to answer let alone even contemplate that question. Did you have to give an answer today or do you have time to think about it?

@RebelliousAngel

I meant to write yesterday... changed it now...

I never *have* to answer, it was just a thought planted... but I did write this last night

my doctor asked me just today

what I wanted for my life

where I see myself

five years down the line

the answer did not come to me

never had I been asked

my life was just survival

to run, stay safe or get out

I gave up on my dreams

in the most recent homelessness

she took those when she stole

not just money, but my hope

the hope of owning a house

getting a job in a library

I mean I had the deposit

until she took it away

I'm 36 and he asked

he wants to help me get there

I keep thinking of kids

getting asked in high school

I wish I spied in my future

a life where I am loved

doing all abilities story time

helping others learn

I want my book published

both my short story and this year

I'd love to have a boyfriend

but not the guy from last week

I want NDIS

help pay for what I need

from headphones to therapy

to help me succeed

I want my dad to be dead

so I could somehow be free

to live life without fear

of him finding me

I want to learn the skills

I never learned as a kid

have someone to teach me

like my parents never did