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Bad mood today

Bad mood today

Just in a bad mood today.

I didn't have a good session with my psych at the start of the week and now I dunno when my next appointment is (maybe the week after next, maybe the following?) and asking him about it is not an option.

I yelled at my dad this morning cause he was dismissing my efforts on something I was only doing at his request, and he's been a constant negative nancy and trying to drag everyone into his pity party instead of doing something about his mood.

I have no one to talk to about anything and am sick of refreshing reddit and fbook trying to find something that'll occupy me enough to stop my own spiral.

My stupid birthday is coming up and I'm supposed to pick where to go for lunch with family but I'm not the one with dietary requirements or mobility requirements so idgaf - I don't see why I should have to pick something when it's everyone else that needs to be satisfied. Birthdays are never about my preference so we should drop the pretence.

Trigger warning: mention of SI

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My birthday this year was also a loosely planned day for me to end my life but a couple of months ago I had decided not to do it. Maybe something that would've still been useful to discuss with my psych IF I HADN'T SPENT THE ENTIRE STUPID APPOINTMENT STARING AT THE FLOOR AND NOT TALKING ABOUT ANYTHING LIKE A DAMN FLOWER VASE. I won't do it but I sure remember why I was planning it.

I tried to get some energy out this arvo by having a bit of a play on the bike and doing some dumbbell exercises but now I'm just sad.

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You are not useless! We understand that guidelines can be interpreted in different ways at times. We also know that some people find edits a bit scary. We're here to assure you that these edits are not a sign that you're in trouble, or a reflection of your character @TheVorticon

When you do get home in a couple days, would you be able to send us an email? We'd love to chat with you and see how we can support you in feeling confident with posting here. We can also walk you through the edit in more detail and answer your questions. We have these conversation over emails so that our forums space can focus on mental health peer support rather than guideline/forum use stuff 😊

We look forward to your email soon.

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Happy Birthday @TheVorticon !

Way to go for staring at the floor during therapy since they never ask us questions any way.

At least you're not making up stories to get the psychologist attention (that's why I have so many Delusional Stories- it's to get attention from people around me)

And is IDGAF "I don't give a f***"?

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Hi @FearofUnknown yeah that's what the acronym stands for.

Thanks.

Ha yeah I understand the temptation to make up a story sometimes though I hope you don't have to do it just to get taken seriously.

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I caught a cold so am feeling pretty ordinary. I've got an online session with my psych tomorrow and am not sure if I'll be able to talk without coughing every time I try to say anything. I've only tried to say a couple of words all weekend and one sentence to a neighbour up the road (who I actually half crossed the road to avoid so I wouldn't have to say anything but it didn't work) almost had me coughing all over the footpath. On a scale of 1 to 10, how weird would it be if I whispered into the mic for the whole session? 😂

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Still haven't fully got rid of the cough I mentioned last post here. It's much better but still almost every time I talk and can't get through a whole song if I'm singing along. I'd started strength training before I went on a holiday and then wasn't feeling well enough when I got back. Finally tried again today and I've lost any progress I'd made. Pretty fed up

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