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That would have made finding him very shocking @Rhymster

@Appleblossom I tread carefully because despite only ever offering friendship unwanted feelings from them develop too often

It makes it harder to deal with grief when we can't share it in a cathartic, memorable and supportive manner @Rhymster

People often have too much going on.

@Appleblossom I miss him though I am going to lay in bed now and wait for sleep to visit..

Good night @Rhymster I hope sleep offers you a gentle break.

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Hey @Rhymster,

We can't imagine what it would have been like to find your friend had passed a month and a half ago. Loss and grief are always so complex, and we imagine that this would add another layer to the grief you are already feeling - I'm sorry for your loss 🌼

You also share that you feel you have nothing to live for and have frequent suicidal thoughts. You mentioned having a counsellor and I wonder if you have been able to reach out to them about these suicidal thoughts? Making sure you have a good support system during this difficult time is important for your safety and wellbeing.

I hope you have a restful sleep - take care!

Hi @Appleblossom

I can hear that you also struggle with suicidal thoughts, where your mind can get curly and dream up rational reasons. It's good to hear that despite this you try and deflect these thoughts. Do you have any other supports in place? Wanting to echo @NightPixie here to say that making sure you have a good support system in place can really help 💮

TunedIn 🎶

Thank you @TunedIn I am fortunate, in that I do finally have supports. Grateful to see my psychologist today.

Hi @Rhymster just wanted to check in and see who you're going. Hope you were able to get some rest

@Ru-bee despite not dreaming sleep has never been my friend