I am Me

I too am loyal and not prone to violence, as well infinitely patient. Though I never hold back on speaking truth

Also that respectful I used to have a global friendship circle

Hey @Rhymster , thinking of you and wondering how you're doing this week? (only if you want to respond, no pressure to!)

@AlwaysMyself not good been thinking about ending it all day but worry not no plans to actually do it

Sorry to hear you're mind is plaguing you with those thoughts today @Rhymster .

Is there anything specific that is triggering it? Anything you are worried about? Or just feeling tired of it all?

@AlwaysMyself no this happened last time I was antidepressants also

Ahhh. I recall reading a post recently about antidepressants and SI - was it you who was on that thread? Or another person? (My memory isnt so great this past week for the finer details).

I always think its a funny irony that anti-depressants can also have a side effect of SI. 😆

I get a lot of SI thoughts without feeling distress; its weird and a lot of people dont understand it.

@AlwaysMyself I don't think it was my post but can't tell you the last time I got a decent night's sleep so memory isn't the best. You are correct in that the thoughts won't stop but I don't plan on following through with it

Sounds a little similar to my thoughts situation, @Rhymster . Not much consolation, but you're the only one if that helps in solidarity at all!

I have a holiday in a month to look forward to. And im keeping my options open for next year, so I dont feel boxed into life situations (work, social) if I want to do something else for awhile im going to let myself change course of life.

@AlwaysMyself I hope you find what you seek upon your new path Mate. It is what it is, I take comfort with the knowledge that all things pass