@Former-Member ive had one psychologist i completely trust suggest schema and modes are presenting in our sessions especially punitive parent and psychiatrist is leaning heavily on emdr also but my other psychologist who has unintentionally triggered me a few times by having all the best intentions one of which was a session of trauma processing that was fine in session however rumenation later in day led to messy and she strongly says i would need to do it as an in patient, psychiatrist says no one does it like that but maybe an admission and the emdr people come there. yeahhh nah so im on waiting list for 12months of DBT so im better equipped for basically being triggered deliberately and settled repeatedly as i had emdr explained.
also told prior skills needed for schema, ACT i experienced by having a link about 'dropping anchor'' sent to me which i followed and resulted in a big dose of self loathing, doubt and critisicm i still growl just now a little remembering doing all was said then being told its a big world out there now i can go interact with it freely and engage or something like that & the fact it wasnt even close to happening saw me spiral into thoughts of whats wrong with me?
this is sposed to work hes a expert and this is a proven therapy and got very quickly frustrated with the fact i really tried, im stupid no ones going to believe i tried coz it made me angry not see rainbows or unicorns which was answered by not all things work for everyone which felt pacifying.
CBT maybe later is best for me personally as every time it comes near my orbit i feel like its trying to pick a fight { i know makes no sense it is proven therapy}
DBT i have done a course of and it has changed my life, i use minndfulness daily and radical acceptance etc but it can take a lot of mental energy and facing the facts is a narrative im able to flip to foreboding but upside is it has helped me grow in self compassion, box breathing helps so much too only i dont know how to pull myself up with it i focused on the regulation of overwhelm more so i look forward to a spot in new programme being available.
thats my last 2 years experiance before that i ran at fear now its my master