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Hope everyone's had as good a day as possible
my highlight was the moment 20minn ago that i got on the laptop i just been sitting staring at all day.
Even though every person interacted with in the SANE community has been kind,
even though every day since joining i come on and feel a sense of belonging by supports and tags
even though when im on here for hours ii dont feel a ny less welcome
even thoughi like being here and when im here it feels safe
even though people have compassion, kindness, patience and humility for fellow forumites while carrying wieght of thier own lived experiences and current battles
even though nothings been said to cause me think and feel this way
even though iim aware decades of no care given what people thiink and not wanting part of anything meaningful outside of home when kids were under the same roof making me awkward nothing else.
Because of all the goodness you have all bought into my life and the respect iyou have makes my fear of stuffing it up real because you are valued basically im vulnerable feelings t being hurt.
i know that sounds so pathetic, i dont talk to people and i find myself writing these over share oosts like so and i know theres a high chance my inability to express myself mixed with spades a spade mentality im going to push boundrys and cross lines.
that scares me because you all matter and its a community amd a community is la society and society means i dont belong and rejects me for who i am despite being very honest and trustworthy.
egad im doing it again!
im sorry if i sound like broken record, i know im as anonymous as everyone else so you dont know how so out of ordinary this is for me and im an adult i know cant please everyone ... deep breath
this is me wanting you all to know you bring warn light into my day and its bew i want to not stuff it up i dont want to keep repeating i need to learn reading takes more time than listening i hope you are all well im now foxing to see whats happened in the threads today
wow this took me 3hrs i thought was 20min
Thanks for tour patience if here still reading this line