hello so many people i wish to engage with but my attempts to be savvy by cuttin g and posting @tags took me to thier page freaked me out coz i dont want be on thier page man they gunna think im suss as!
so if you see me been looking at your page nothing suss i had a shot at being tech savvy.
back to single digit typing @ChasingSuns @PeppyPatti
@Blackcloud that must be be eye opening to be in them seats and see the volumne of calls and no doubt emotionally difficult at times, honourable work for sure i hope it goes well for you.
a person i love very dearly was getting upset with me on a property because meds i was on made me clumsy and break thing, i didnt want to fight my silence was takebn as an insult i couldnt process the attacks quick enough got emotionally overwhelmed triggered flight and i started walking;. i feel scorched earth building in me so im going home, yip see you laters.
walk for a few hours find a road. walk few more hours get pivcked up taken into town awesome coz phones got 2bars.
question of train station please was, next bus is tomorrow to the next bus 80 ks up that highway and that bus will take you the other 100 or so ks to the train station.
a journey of wonder & adventure runs through my mind.
never been good at math.
preparation thinking, its winter i might be walking for a while hmmmm,
2 big packets of snakes and water coz im smart see. no salt.
insufficent funds. embarressed i put back the water and try again.
lady must of cracked my poker face told me take them she looked concerned said it was 1deg last night, i thank her from bottom of my heart it was humbling and made me feel she saw good in me.
towns out of site as dusk is falling, lovely skyline only property in sight no dwellings pure nature.
no streetlights wasnt really noticed till it was dark dark it was cold quick i was not dressed for it start looking for a culvert or drain to curl up in till morning.
thought about some sheds and things but reality of being shot or mauled by farm dogs kept me walking.
could usually walk all night its different walking them highways in the night .
i rang lifeline dont really know why, maybe they had a helicopter for this a common predicament people of intellect find themselves in......
still only 2 bars, get a nice lady tell her my situation she asked me location i i tell her sign i saw she sounded concerned seeing igt on her map.
the phone took my concentration off walking so when trucks came spotlights on i didnt realise id be on the highway itself until they passed . like a moth i said, must of been out loud coz she asked, told her im getting disorientated by trucks lights and unknowingkly walking onto highway . it worried the poor lady, to her should call police idea i told her im ok i can see a shelter i just wait till morning thanked her ended call poliet vas could.
was a lot of comfort her voice on that dark highway.
i felt bad, she must of been upset from an earlier call and im ringing for dumbness and she was kind.
eventually sign 5ks to driver reveiver , only trucks on road now and i must say it was pretty hairy at times i learned just stand still once blinded to stay off the road.
might of some thoughts of werewolves and being eaten by a sasquatch im not admitting to anything. when no lights or sounds of trucks the sound of my footsteps make me feel like a target and the silence itself was not happy with me disturbing it.
night appears to get darker and darker out there!
not even a toilet to protect from chill only a awning with seats and table at reviver.
cant start fire everything already dewy i gotta keep moving
feet are blistered aches are on but stationary will freeze ,one bar on phone
i hear the kind lady and call 000, (expecting to be laughed at)
end up talking to police in closest station and tell them phones going die im heading into your town will come past the station if not there tomorrow night i might be in trouble just a heads up.
told cars on its way stay still so they find me its too dark on the road they will pass you.
lived experiance left no argument
a more invested look got me a fire, cops get there and actually let me sit in car . that was new
.didnt berate me, they had a point about the trucks hit roos out here they keep going its not a place for people to be walking in the dark.
dropped at a truck stop get phone charged a bit kids send me money on a coach early next morning back in familiar territory late afternoon and thought the food on train was decent.
that lady most likely saved my life that night, not from self harm ways , police to help being a thing was foriegn. she laid that seed and has no idea what came of that call.
certainly wouldnt of been a testy case in training or thered be a helicopter.
her humility mattered, it wasnt cold generated advice and im just saying thank you for manning them phones.
it must be emotionally taxing what you hear i wanted to share because you may get a call and wonder afterward, i dont know if kind lady did or not.
my point is i listened to her and here i am. if i didnt listen to her and sun didnt rise on me it was nothing more she could of done.
to hear of pedestrian hit on news in that area may of wondered if more she could of done sort of thing. but there wasnt she gave me the best practical solution to my situation ensuring my safety with kindness and compassion if i disregarded that then outcome moving forward was on me.
i hope you dont hear a seeker for help chooses tragedy after you have spent time on phone with them, if it does dont entertain the destructive wondering of could you have done more.
you know you done the best you could, you already done much more than most in thier world by sitting in the chair taking the call really.
if your guidance is not followed,most likely no ones was going to be
,even in the worst possible outcome your care and concern is a comfort the seeker would not of had without you.
