Hi

They thought it was more than cool! You should've seen their faces. It was priceless. They were rapt! @ArraDreaming

and definitely not every week!! I am definitely not providing drinks to the public without any paperwork

NO I am not

It's still a pretty cool initiative @ArraDreaming . And yes, your outta be proud of it!

We have another adult down with gastro as of yesterday lol. My sister's husband.

I just want people to connect, not just for me but others too
@tyme
including Mrs ad
But also something I can control how much I put into it and how much. I want to socialise. I struggled with like footy this year, there was no ownership over getting it right and keeping it going, when I lost my temper I had nothing to lose when they wouldnt let me play, I was like oh yeah I’m out this week, that sucks it doesn’t change much for me

Something like this is all in my hands, and if I don’t feel like socialising… I don’t go, and I fuc k it up and yell at everyone and lose my temper (which I wouldnt) nobody will come back and it will go to shit. And that’s on me entirely and the opportunity is gone for good.
You know what I mean?
Sorry your fam is sick too

Dealing with another virus here too mate

There's. a lot of insight into what you have shared. I can see you've thought about it a lot @ArraDreaming

I honestly believe that at some point, you will bw able to recognise these feelings and do what you can to interrupt them, work with them or do something about them so that you don't miss out on things you love for the fear of losing your temper @ArraDreaming

I'm not saying it's easy, but it something to work towards.

If you really value something, it gives up more of a reason to work towards it.

But I also get that if you don't feel like socialising that day, it's okay not to 🙂

I’m really trying to recognise them @tyme I am

Yep, I havent cancelled one yet but I know it’s up to me if Im not feeling it. I also kinda like tht there is an object or task while I am socialising
It takes the pressure off, some people would find it hard but for me it means if there’s a few of us talking and I need to exit the convo, maybe I’m starting to feel nervous or something
I can just focus on the task
It gives me a reason and an excuse in my mind to not be perfect or be forced to think of the right answer cause I can just be busy instead

kinda how I don’t mind taking my kids places that will be hard to socialise because I just can say they are grumpy and we need to go, even if they aren’t lol