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Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Hi

I have been diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety, social anxiety, and depression.

I saw a trauma psychologist for 10 months twice a week, but she stopped seeing me when my safety became an issue while processing the trauma.

My symptoms are so bad now I isolate myself in the car everyday to avoid triggers and flashbacks. Unable to go to strange places, talk to people. Just don't belong anywhere. Anxiety so bad I shake most of the time, chest pain and hard to breathe... This isn't living......

I'm too damaged to be helped, I have tried but no one will help me..... They just tell me its too complex and they are unable to help. I don't know what do do I have no support isolated, alone and scared....

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In response to: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

We can learn so much from history. Karen. I like the slower pace of country life, butI was only in one country orphanage and spent time on a dairy farm. It reminds us how long it takes for things that are alive to grow. It teaches us patience and quiet. Things we need when being a parent. Jacques is right

I remember feeling a moment of annoyance when our dog ate my fancy burgandy French calfskin stilletos but I let it go .. the shoes and my crankiness .. it took 5 seconds .. time is an interesting thing .. so subjective ..

Karen, we cant actually rely on a saviour outside of ourselves, we all lean from different people. There are so many things to learn about life and the MH services are stretched .. I know that all too well .. I have also seen so many different files and reports about children from different eras of social work.

We dont know how people will grow but we have to do what we can to help. Keep courage

In response to: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Hey are you an Egypt lover too, yes i can't believe how advanced civilisations where in those days, all those people who are forgotten, who will remember you or i in 1000 years? maybe you and me Karen should focus on that, no one will remember who we are in the pages of time.

ooooh dark chocolate, my favourite, you will have to put up with my size 12 foot, but no problem, plenty of room.

nice to here you focus on something else, it was about the great city of petra, well that is in Jordan, sorry, but the buildings where of Egypt origins, the sculptures and the beautiful buildings, petra is the one large building carved into the stone wall, so beautiful, look it up on google if you can.

my favourite Egyptian god is Ra the sun god, the eagle, so beautiful, all the statues, oh my gosh they must have been a sight in their day, all painted and admired. oh i can just imagine the gold statues and the bussling cities, i know i am looking through rose coloured glasses, but it is nice to imagine.

take care my angel, i will bring the hot chocolate

In response to: Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Karen you probably will not read this until tomorrow, but if you would like to talk i will be on the computer all day tomorrow, i am only too happy to keep you company.

In response to: Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

good morning my angel,

well we have another day, the sun is shining here, i went for my walk this morning, their where mag pies everywhere getting food and twigs for their nests, singing their beautiful tune, it was foggy here, but is starting to lift now.

i hope today you find a nice spot to enjoy the wildlife and the beauty of nature.

i am here if you want to talk or just sit together quietly.

take care, be safe

jacques

In response to: Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Hi Jacques

Thanks for sitting with me when I need to.

It's a freezing cold morning and lots of rain.

I went to the girls assembly and now gone Bush. I don't want anyone around. I'm triggered enough.

Thanks for understanding j.

Karen

In response to: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Wow good on you making it to the girls assembly, can you describe what you are seeing now to me, the sights, the sounds, etc?

It's OK if you don't want to, I will just sit with you.

You are my angel

Jacques

In response to: Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Hey Jacques

The mountains are covered in heavy cloud, it is raining. So all the trees are drooping because of the weight on them.

There is a pair of cookaburras swooping down to get the mud cabbies and worms.

There are some cockatoo in the distance.

I can hear the river running really fast the noise of the rain on my car.

That's about it the ducks are hiding too wet for them.

I hope your day has some sunshine in it J.

Thinking of you

Karen

In response to: Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

What a lovely description of the beautiful scene before you @hiddenite I can picture it now. What sounds can you hear? What can you smell?

In response to: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

OMG I love kookaburra's, we have always a family of them and they visit most days.

The sound of the river must be really nice, I love the sound of running water, can't wait to put my pond in.

Oh the ducks need to toughen up, they have waterproof feathers, lol.

Yes the sun is shining brightly in the central west NSW, I can hear the birds tweeting and the Wind blowing through the branches, so peaceful. All the wildlife are either playing or having an early lunch.

I can smell all the different variety of flowers it is so nice, but not good for my hay fever. The smell of coffee is perfuming the air.

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Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

I can smell wet grass, the sweet smell of the wattle on the black wood trees. I can hear the wind in the trees.

Screeching of the cockatoo, laughing of the collaborate.

I don't Everett go back

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