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Despair potential trigger: abuse

hiddeniteSenior Contributor30 Jan 2015, 8:13 pm AEDT

Despair potential trigger: abuse

I have been diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety, social anxiety, and depression.

I saw a trauma psychologist for 10 months twice a week, but she stopped seeing me when my safety became an issue while processing the trauma.

My symptoms are so bad now I isolate myself in the car everyday to avoid triggers and flashbacks. Unable to go to strange places, talk to people. Just don't belong anywhere. Anxiety so bad I shake most of the time, chest pain and hard to breathe... This isn't living......

I'm too damaged to be helped, I have tried but no one will help me..... They just tell me its too complex and they are unable to help. I don't know what do do I have no support isolated, alone and scared....

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JacquesSenior Contributor28 July 2015, 7:14 pm AEST

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Oh @hiddenite, they look awsome, i am definatly going to get some to do. they look good for taking your mind off of things.

i hope the girls and yourself do plenty of them, make a montage of them.

Oh yes, the old fashioned roses, i have a peach one and a deep red on planted in the back yard, the smell is amazing, (even though it triggers my hayfeaver) but the sneezing is worth it. here is a picture of them from last year.

i am waiting for them to get strong in the pot before i plant them.

oh wow the essential oil you said sounds nice, strong, but nice. will check out a store when i next get to town.

Karen you are so worth it, you are my friend, when you feel pain and hurt, i do to. i only want the best for you, you know that. enjoy your mandalas, try not to go outside the lines

Keep warm, big hugs

Jacques

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NikNikSenior Contributor28 July 2015, 7:21 pm AEST

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@hiddenite I have a colouring book myself. I find it really relaxing!

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hiddeniteSenior Contributor28 July 2015, 7:42 pm AEST

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The girls psychologist gives them mandalas to take home.
it helps them too.

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WombatBootsSenior Contributor28 July 2015, 8:10 pm AEST

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Hey there @hiddenite Karen

I just want to let you know that you mean a lot to me.

I know that I havn't posted to you directly many times, well just one time I did and I think that worked out well 🙂

The reason why I havn't is obvious, I am a guy and I don't want to be a trigger. However I would like to let you know my thoughts and heart are with you and J daily.

Please be kind to yourself always

Matt

I have an 11yo girl and 9yo boy and we love colouring together, textas have been banned !! (another story) we also do 1000 piece jigsaws together, lots of fun and mindful times

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hiddeniteSenior Contributor28 July 2015, 8:29 pm AEST

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Thank you Matt
every time I answer a post from a man I see it as challenging my opinion that all men are like my husband.

I appreciate the time you took to post.

we love jigsaw puzzles the girls and I are doing a 1000 piece one of horses.
take care
karen

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hiddeniteSenior Contributor29 July 2015, 9:17 am AEST

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Oh crap

psychiatrist is on holidays now what!!!!!!

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JacquesSenior Contributor29 July 2015, 9:35 am AEST

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i @hiddenite, geeze you are not having a good week are you? well did the psyciatrist leave a number or another person you can see while they are away?

Maybe if you can get to the mental health facility, maybe see a councillor.

Karen i am here if you need to talk, you have been through tough times before, remember i am their in spirit holding your hand.

well i went for my wlak this morning, -1, it was a bit cold, i could not feel my fingers and ears when i got home.

take care

Jacques

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hiddeniteSenior Contributor29 July 2015, 11:35 am AEST

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Hi Jacques
just got back from my walk.

Gee I thought it got cold here....you win today!!!!

I asked if there was anyone else I could see and the only appointment is Wednesday next week with a male psychiatrist. There is no way I can manage that.

so its just another day in the car. I never manage to do things the easy way. So scared of ending up in the public mhu.

karen

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hiddeniteSenior Contributor29 July 2015, 11:53 am AEST

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Oh by the way it wasn't the dad I had to worry about today. It was his wife who approached me asking who I thought I was and that im a snob and no better than them!!!!!
My 6 year old had to tell her to leave me alone:(

so humiliated. .. not fair that my daughter had to stick up for me. Im so pathetic and worthless. You can't deny it now.

if only she knew how much im hurting and have no self worth and struggle just to get through a day.

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JacquesSenior Contributor29 July 2015, 12:44 pm AEST

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Well @hiddenite my angel guess what if you are pathetic so am i, i can't handle confrontation either. Mum has to fight all my fights for me.

You answered you own question, hiw is she to know your background. Sone people do not deserve our time. She is o e of them.

Rememer people can be cruel abd nice. Just focus on the nice ones.

I am sorry their is no one you can see. Have you tried the web site i gave you yesterday? It will list all services in your area. Male and female psycologists

Let me jnow hiw you go.

I am here if you need me.

Jacques

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