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Despair potential trigger: abuse

hiddeniteSenior Contributor30 Jan 2015, 8:13 pm AEDT

Despair potential trigger: abuse

I have been diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety, social anxiety, and depression.

I saw a trauma psychologist for 10 months twice a week, but she stopped seeing me when my safety became an issue while processing the trauma.

My symptoms are so bad now I isolate myself in the car everyday to avoid triggers and flashbacks. Unable to go to strange places, talk to people. Just don't belong anywhere. Anxiety so bad I shake most of the time, chest pain and hard to breathe... This isn't living......

I'm too damaged to be helped, I have tried but no one will help me..... They just tell me its too complex and they are unable to help. I don't know what do do I have no support isolated, alone and scared....

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NikNikSenior Contributor17 July 2015, 6:33 pm AEST

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That's excellent @hiddenite - great to hear the good news.
What does this change for you? Would you investigate a private hospital or other private care?

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JacquesSenior Contributor17 July 2015, 7:18 pm AEST

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@hiddenite, that is fantastic news, so from now on you go to a private treatment facility? if so you may want to look up really good PTSD specialist's to help with the flashbacks.

i am so proud of you, the start of the week was a nightmare, the end of the week sand most problems are sorted, the start of the week you could not see your doctor, now you have done it. i am almost jumping out of my skin with exitement for you.

you are such a brave soul i can't wait too see what you are going to be able to achieve next week. . i will be on here for a few hours if you want to talk, here or friday feast, it is up to you.

Take Care My Angel

Jacques

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hiddeniteSenior Contributor17 July 2015, 7:36 pm AEST

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Hey Jacques

you are correct I now am covered for private hospital.
I never want to go back to the public system.
Oh and dont forget that it would not have been possible without your help and support.

Jacques I will be eternally grateful for your help.

I feel I take so much from you and not helping you.
so if you need anything you only have to ask.
take care my friend
thank you for helping me fight
karen

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JacquesSenior Contributor17 July 2015, 7:44 pm AEST

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Karen, you have done so much for me already, since finding you again, my depression has lifted a little, i was in a lost state, you have given me a reason to think of something else.

Karen just hearing the smile through your writing is more than enough thanks for me. you really deserve all the care and attention private cover can give you.

Don't worry about me, i have to fight on for mum, my problems pale in comparison to yours, i am eternally greatful you are back in my life.

I will always be here to help you fight, as i know you will be their for me.

Jacques

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hiddeniteSenior Contributor17 July 2015, 7:57 pm AEST

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Ah next week I will have a bigger challenge....

im sure i can think of something

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JacquesSenior Contributor17 July 2015, 8:00 pm AEST

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good for you, good to see you pushing yourself, (even when you don't want too), remember i will be bside you holding your hand

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JacquesSenior Contributor18 July 2015, 7:13 pm AEST

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Hello @hiddenite,

just catching up with you about my day, well i had to fix the front tap today, i managed to break the fitting, and it took me all day to fix, but i got their, had to fix one of my mothers friends laptop, but not much else going on, how are you feeling today? how is the weather? i hope you are in a bit better space this weekend, i am so proud of you reaching out to @Former-Member with her court case, it is good to see you interacting with others here, it is one more step in your journey to recovery.

Take Care My Angel, rest up, Tomorrow is another day

Jacques

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JacquesSenior Contributor19 July 2015, 9:07 am AEST

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Hi @hiddenite, (My Angel)

i just read a great post by @Appleblossom, about how to help you with your journey, here is the link to it. http://saneforums.org/t5/Our-experience-stories/14th-year-house-bound/td-p/22822/page/15 you might like to think about it, it sounds like it would really help.

well not hearing from you, either things are not good again or things are great and you are now free and roaming, , seriously though my thoughts where with you yesterday and today, i hope all is going ok. Not much to report, a quiet day today, just vegging out enjoying the sun and another beautiful day.

Take Care My Angel, hope to hear from you soon.

Jacques

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hiddeniteSenior Contributor21 July 2015, 4:14 pm AEST

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Just love it when I get home and my mother tells me that my children are better off without me.

for someone who struggles daily with their safety that is the last thing I beed to be told.

it confirms everything I fell that everyone would be better off if I just let go.

What reasons to fight I come up with nothing. ..
hopless , worthless. .....

im so exhausted from trying

why bother when im out of options.

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EllieSenior Contributor21 July 2015, 5:21 pm AEST

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And this is just the time when you need to fight tooth and nail just to show her how wrong she is.

I've been a bit quiet on here of late, but I have been keeping up with your thread and am surprised at how resilient you can bee despite the obstacles placed in your way by life itself. I know you're an inspiration to me, so please keep that inspiration coming. You help others without even realising it.

Stay strong my girl,

Ellie.

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