Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

@hiddenite

im wondering if you can see another gp to see if they would say the same thing- did he mean theres no one that can see you this week? Or not at all?

What are you going to do tonight apart from chat to us tonight? i think theres a movie on later around 9 i might put on in the background to watch while im here- and i have a giant pile of washing to fold... but ill avoid that as much as i can.

Complex trauma and a safety risk.

Only one might see me in March.

Unable to go to strange places or talk to people, makes it so difficult. Even a phone call is enough to cause extreme anxiety.

I don't know what to do isolated myself in the car. Can't manage anything else.

Anxiety bad makes it hard to breathe, chest pain and shaking. Exhausted

why do you think a hospital trip is a bad idea again? i just want the best for you while your going through this tonight is all.

ill still be here to chat any ways- about nearly any thing i think- symptoms to hobbies. Do you have any pets at home?

Ended up in MHU in October last year after doing something, I was attacked twice by a patient, passed out because I couldn't get to the communal eating area. No food for three days. Violent men were a trigger, no psych on ward, men trying to chat me up.... They told me they were unable to help the place was triggering, and they don't refer patients. Six days to be told they couldn't help me or refer me to someone.

No dog husband threw him through a window....sorry

Just spent an hour being questioned by the CATT team can this day possibly get worse. Had enough, backed into a corner, no options.....so overwhelmed had enough

Sorry Peace

Could write pages of negative stuff about me. I don't see anything good. Just believe all the stuff I've been told for so long.

Hi @hiddenite

Please allow the CATT team to assist you. You don't have to, and don't deserve to, go through this alone.

While we are all here tonight to help you feel less alone, we aren't a crisis service. The CATT team will be able to assist you for tonight at the very least.

Has the CATT team come to you, or have they called you?

Nik

May i ask- do you live with any one now? Im wondering if you could go home if you wanted to.

All i can think about is how i wish you could have a cup of tea or a shower to have any little thing make you feel better. Can you go home to any kind of comforts?

They called me, lots of very intense questions but it was a man and I couldn't tell him how bad things are. Just went into protective mode. Disappointed in myself. But so scare about being in a MHU told him what he wanted to hear. I'm just so stupid.

But having to talk on the phone.....and to a man too triggering.

He is going to call tomorrow.

Why is it so difficult to say how bad things really are.

I just loathe myself