Hey @Sabby, thanks for sharing your experiences with the community!
I can relate to how you feel about taking time to realise you disaccosiate, the isolation you have been experiencing and substance misuse. I am diagnosed with schizophrenia and I didn't realise my delusions were not real and it took a while to realise I was hearing voices. It took 9 years actually and I believed that I was being investigated and was very paranoid.
I experienced a lot of isolation due to losing my friends due to my MH and people not seeing who I was then. I misused a lot of substances for about 10 years and it actually contributed to my declining MH over time.
I understand that self-care can be challenging at times and I am curious what you would do if you could manage it? I like to listen to music and hang out with my friends when I can and recently I have been watching Netflix as I couldn't do it before because I found it triggering.
Thanks for sharing again and I encourage you to continue to reach out to your peers here!
Take care
RiverSeal