cdtofiSenior Contributor
Bit more of my life
Hi there again
Had a draining few days. Not real sure, well I suppose I really am sure why.?
‘So I’m trying to tell a lie. Just joking
I wouldn’t lie to save myself
Well that reminds me of a memory 🥲
I had this older brother
My mother would say Who done this or that
Always cdtofi done it mum
TW: abuse
So he would hold me down on the bed while I was physically abused [edited by moderator]. Knowing full well that he done it. He done it all my life.
always lying about me. I was known to be the liar of the house just because of him.
I was raped. I was not believed about anything. So in the end I just said I lied.. Then I was punished. I went to school had to come straight home from the bus. Shut the gate & don’t go out of it for 3 months.
Then as I was growing up he threw me on the floor but I was saved someone came thru the door.
‘I’m gonna tell mum on you”
She won’t believe you
He was correct.
He was maybe the worst person(there was a heap) in my life.
Fancy having to grow up with a brother like that
My father said to the person interviewing me get the truth out of her anyway you can
So I was physically abused. That should not be allowed. I was a child.
‘The story did not change.
Everywhere I went when I was growing up abuse, abuse, I did not have to go far. I lived with it daily just by being born a girl in that family.
My father said to my mother. Don’t show them any Emotion I want them to grow up TOUGH. No love, nothing. No one to turn to for help as no one would believe me
Sorry if I have said too much. Just telling the truth
Its no wonder I am a recluse aye???
It’s just a shame the Government wasn’t in back then to protect kids. Because that’s what I needed
Not sure what I’m allowed to write on here
Recovery Club…..
Well I believe that’s what I’m starting this week.
Bit excited
50 mins first up.
Not sure that will be long enough to get all the animals out of my head in 1 session. But will see how I go.
