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@AuntGlow idk if i am in a decent space to answer those questions right now i feel the answers would all be very negative anyway i am still struggling and idk if i can even get into it right now or i might start crying again i am just not going well.

Okay, that is completely understandable and I appreciate your honesty @Eden1919. What can I do to be there for you today? Would you like me to sit with how you are feeling? Maybe that is what you are needing most at the moment? ☺️💛

@AuntGlow I really don’t know what I need at the moment which is frustrating and makes things difficult. I am just so tired and exhausted and overwhelmed and everything is just too much and I am trying so hard and still completely failing at everything and I just don’t know what to do anymore I just keep crying and needing to sleep but not being able to idk everything is a lot.

hey @Eden1919 i can hear how overwhelming its been for you, not being able to sleep must be really frustrating!! i'm so sorry.

is there a professional you're able to chat with about your feelings/thoughts and sleeping issue? how's your sleep hygiene been? (i.e. avoiding staying in bed unless it bedtime, turn off tech screens a few hours before bed and start dimming the lights, etc)

Hey @Eden1919, it seems like sleep and proper rest will help so much with your sense of clarity and grounding. Is this something you could talk about with your GP at all?

I am also curious to know if you psychiatrist appointment was able to be rebooked.

What are your plans for this evening? 💕

@rav3n @AuntGlow i do all the sleep hygiene stuff and have tried everything under the sun for my sleep issues including doing 2 sleep studies and have talked to countless doctors and psychs about it and there is nothing more anyone can do about it honestly i just get lucky if i manage to get any sleep. my psychiatrist was rebooked but it ended up being a pointless appointment because that psych is leaving and i will have to see someone different next time i go anyway and there were no changes to the almost non existent plan which seems to be just suck it up and stop complaining i am honestly fed up with everything at this point and so so tired. anyway there is a lot going on which i dont have the energy to go into right now but things arent going well at all.

Hey @Eden1919, I can relate with not being able to sleep as I have have so much issues with it and my mother is going through it atm. I have not had the invetigationg that you have had but was relient on sleeping medications when I go diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2016. In the end they didn't do anything and I stopped them due to the side effects the following day.

I don't have the best sleep hygiene and often sleep on my couches instead of going to bed which for some reason I seem to enjoy but question whether it's the best thing for me. I do notice that now that I am exercising I do seem to be sleeping a little better and maybe my body is actually tired and getting some of the rest it needs.

I have spent may days without sleep the night before and it is really hard to manage the day. It affects my appetite too and I can struggle to eat and often make the wrong choice for ease and something comforting.

Thanks for shaing your experiences with the communtiy!

Take care

RiverSeal