Morning Check-In

@MissGremlin

Hey, how are you feeling tonight?

@avant-garde hello sweet, I'm actually very nervous tonight. How about you?

@MissGremlin

Had Bible study tonight and was a bit brave and got home, wrote today's poem and sent it to the group. Can't say I like being vulnerable, given that some don't know my history and don't know what I live with because of my faith.

Do you want to talk about your nervousness?

@avant-garde it can be so hard to be vulnerable, proud of you for being brave sweet ♥️.

It's just been a bit of a rough day today and feelings and emotions have been all over the place. I've found myself so overwhelmed at times and it's been a struggle to calm down and slow things down.

@MissGremlin

It's like the mountain climb is just getting taller... that was me yesterday...

Would it help to go through the 3-3-3?

@avant-garde it definitely feels that way.

At the moment I'm struggling to focus on anything. I'm gonna try to get some sleep i think. Hopefully tomorrow is a better day.

I hope you can have a restful night sweet. Sending you hugs ♥️

@MissGremlin

Goodnight sweetheart

@avant-garde night sweet ♥️

@avant-garde so it's 1.30am and I dozed off for a few minutes before waking up having a panic attack. Feeling so alone and scared right now, I've grabbed my avant-garde plushie and I'm trying this grounding exercise to see if I can calm down and try to go back to sleep.

3 things I can see.

●There's a lamp on my bedside table, it's purple and can be moved to direct the light where you need it but it's loud when you move it around.

●The suncatcher hanging on my bed, it has rainbow coloured beads on it and reflects rainbows when the light shines on it.

●Dog collars hanging on my bed, 4 of them which belonged to each of my dogs that I've lost. There's a pink one, purple one, pink camouflage print and a yellow one.

3 things I can hear.

●Magpie outside which should be sleeping but it seems to be confused as to what the time is so it's singing away.

●The rain which has been mostly constant but gets heavier at times, I enjoy listening to it though.

●Casper breathing in my ear as he is snuggled up next to me on my pillow with his wet paws after going out to the toilet.

3 parts of my body that I'm moving.

●My toes, I'm scrunching them up then relaxing them and I can feel them moving on my sheets.

●My hand as I'm squeezing my nee doh cube, it's rather hard and cold so it takes alot to squeeze it.

●My neck as I try to stretch some of the tension out in my body, so I'm rolling my head around.

Hope you and @NightFury are sleeping peacefully. Really looking forward to that morning check in. Time to try to get some more sleep hopefully. Night ♥️

Morning @MissGremlin @avant-garde

It sounds like you had a rough night @MissGremlin. I'm sorry you had to go through that. You're not alone, we're here.

I slept okay. Woke early at 4.45 and haven't managed to go back to sleep. I woke feeling very sore. I've done something to my back. I feel like I have a big knot in the middle of my back, in between my shoulder blades. It's rather uncomfortable.