I am not doing so well

Argggh - at least 2 weeks without you around - bugger @oceangirl

It really is ok - you need it and I'm sure it will help you to get some of your 'spark' back and start to move forward again

If you need to stay longer then just do it - your health and wellbeing is the most important thing and I really want you to be able to see some of your 'old self' return and then be able to find some happiness and peace in your life

I'm not really able to move much atm - I know you know how this affects me both mentally and physically. It is just a matter of getting through the next couple of days the best way I can then start doing the little things again.

I made it to the chemist today but that is about as far as I could go. Hopefully by tomorrow or Saturday I'll have enough energy to drive and can take Toby to the beach - will be good for both of us.

Hope you are able to get some things done today and are relaxing as well.

Chat later sis

Luv ya Zoe

Hi again

@Zoe7 Thinking of you.

I send you a long message but I lost it and it was not saved completely in the autosaved.

The only advice I can give is to start moving because it really does reduce your symtoms. I wish I would have done more of that in the past because I might be further along in my healing journey.

I am looking forward to seeing everyone next week.

Good Luck in hospital @oceangirl Yes we will miss you, but it is good you are taking charge, sifting through things and following through on eventual decisions.

@Zoe7 Take care

Will you be able to do any art .. I need to go now to do mine.

@oceangirl Stupid long messages disappearing - I've had a few of those lately too!!!

I know how much you want me to get moving but I am just not able to atm. Headache is too intense (don't want to take too many painkillers), body is aching terrible, stomach pains and chest is still very tight. Just taking it easy, resting and sleeping when I can. I'm not very confident about sleeping tonight - it has started to get dark (looks like the rain is coming) and it is very windy - that's all I need! I have a feeling it is going to be a very long night but I know I am generally in a better place than I have been so I will get through it.

I am so glad that you are looking forward to seeing everyone next week - and not too much sneaking out for coffee or the other brown stuff lol

@Zoe7 I know - its happen before and its probably going to happen again.

I went to the gym for both of us, I have just got home. I am going to have some dinner.

The only way I get brown stuff is on my walk and we have a staff member with us.

I am hoping your headache eases for you perhaps a long shower and some distraction tonight.

Thinking of you sis.

Me and trouble luv you

@oceangirl

I love you and Trouble right back.

Going to stick on the one thread tonight so please come over and join me there

@Zoe7

I am sorry its so tough for you sis. I really don't like seeing you like this. It concerns me, after you seeing a therapist that you feel worse. You are smart and you know what is best for you. You don't have to continue with the therapy because your GP is doing a great job managing you. But of course that decision is yours. You don't have to be miserable either if you don't continue therapy.

In a good therapy sessions you should be directing where the session goes (content) and if you don't want to discuss xyz at this time and if that changes you will let her know. I am only saying this because of concern for you and I don't want to see you distress anymore.

Tomorrow I am going to pick up my referral from my specialist for my Sydney admission to hospital. I have all my toiletries packed for my admission and most of my clothes. I am just taking enough clothes for five days and I can do my washing in hospital.

How are you now???

I'm sorry I din't see you message prior to my more recent post to you sis. My internet dropped out and I had to wait for it to reconnect and therefore I lost some of the old message. I am not having a good day. @Zoe7

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