Can't stop crying

Feeling very lonely isolated; combo of struggle to get out of bed most mornings and crying.

Can't seem to stop crying today.

My particular neurodivergence means I feel things in greater intensity which makes feelings and emotions harder to deal with

Posting here because this stems from early life issues re feeling abandoned/not enough love/don't seem to be able to love myself. This was brought up and by bullying in a queer not for profit I founded and was pushed out of unfairly after refusing to forge the financial statements. I have a formal C-PTSD diagnosis for what that's worth

I'm not in one of the primary health areas for the 15 week program.

I have a good GP and good psychologist. We are trying all sorts of things re getting to a better place but no real breakthrough.

I just want to be able to get up in the morning quickly and have mental health so I can support myself rather than sinking down further mentally and financially.

My sister is emotionally abusive and derides my metal health and neurodivergence nd my dad's hearing is going.