What do you do with your 'mind clutter' normally @creative_writer ? I find that if it's getting too spirally up in my noggin, externalising it helps - either by journalling, chatting about it to a support, or recording my thoughts as a voice note. I think in some ways, it's cos my brain is soooo forgetful, that it holds onto thoughts that seem important - even if they're stressful. By getting it out, it means I can focus elsewhere and return to it when I'm ready. Do you think that could be helpful?
I know you've mentioned that repeating your story has not necessarily helped in the past so feel free to distregard 😉
Glad you're feeling safe, but those thoughts can get heavy hey. SCBS is always an option 💜