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Contemplating leaving the forums

creative_writerSenior Contributor22 May 2025, 3:29 pm AEST

Contemplating leaving the forums

It’s been so lovely being on the forums, but I’m not sure if I am welcome on here. I will miss you all. I have learnt a lot from you all, I hope you’ve been able to learn something from me

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creative_writerSenior Contributor22 May 2025, 9:44 pm AEST

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@MissGremlin I already have to cover other medical costs, an offical diagnosis will add to my expenses.

It’s one thing to say “x happened to me” and another to recount it in detail. I have mixed feelings about discussing trauma in detail. I feel like it can help but also do so much damage. Personally it doesn’t work for me, I gave up talking about it in detail a very long time ago, it just kept me stuck.

It would be good if the two parts could make peace, maybe it’s something that will come with time

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MissGremlinSenior Contributor22 May 2025, 9:47 pm AEST

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@creative_writer yes there's a very fine line when it comes to talking about trauma. Some people find it helpful to discuss the details whereas for others it's too much to go into. I hate having to talk about it myself but at the moment I'm living the traumatic events constantly through flashbacks.

If only those 2 parts could make peace. Maybe it is something that comes with time, one can only hope.

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creative_writerSenior Contributor23 May 2025, 7:12 am AEST

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@MissGremlin I’ve been having those flashbacks more frequently myself. It’s even harder to talk about during a flashback. Mine tend to be more somatic.

Yes, one can only hope the 2 parts will find peace. I’m still figuring how to address it, I’m not sure yet. What I know is challenging the thoughts aren’t cutting it, I’m still so confused. I might need to do something else

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MissGremlinSenior Contributor23 May 2025, 7:39 am AEST

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@creative_writer the flashbacks are horrible. I see, feel and hear everything happening to me all over again so it's incredibly hard if not impossible to keep myself in the present moment and know what's real and what's not.

There's gotta be a way to get them to work together. Is it something you have chatted to any of your supports about?

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creative_writerSenior Contributor23 May 2025, 7:47 am AEST

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@MissGremlin it can be really hard experiencing flashbacks. Staying present is a challenge. I’ve had times where I disassociated. I have disconnected from my body to the point I wasn’t even aware I was having a somatic flashback. I find re-connecting to my body very overwhelming. I stick to safer relaxation exercise like breathing and 5 sense grounding. I cannot do body scans without being triggered.

There must be some way, but I haven’t found it yet. It’s hard, I wake up with these paralysing thoughts. There is a lot of thoughts going through my brain right now. It’s overwhelming, but for now, I feel like I must sit in the discomfort because I honestly don’t know what to do. I will try to raise the issue with my psych again

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MissGremlinSenior Contributor23 May 2025, 8:01 am AEST

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@creative_writer I'd never dissociated up until recently so didn't even know what was happening when it started and the flashbacks only started in February. So I haven't found anything that works yet, best thing so far that seems to help sometimes is having a weighted blanket on me and holding something in hands. But when it's happening the whole room starts changing around me.

I will sit with you with those thoughts. I have woken up with them aswell and they are so intense. It can be hard to sit with but know that you are not alone ❤️.

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creative_writerSenior Contributor23 May 2025, 8:21 am AEST

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@MissGremlin grounding yourself during a flashback is challenging. Learning how to ground yourself is a work in progress. Weighted blanket and holding something in your hand are amazing grounding strategies 💖

I wake up with the thoughts everyday. I’m hoping it settles once I have my meds soon. I’m too afraid to say too much, so I’ll leave it at that. I’m too scared to post something wrong

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MissGremlinSenior Contributor23 May 2025, 8:26 am AEST

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@creative_writer i keep trying to find things that work but at the moment that's the best I've got and even that's not always helping.

I hope it settles for you. Take a deep breath and know that we are always here for you ❤️

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creative_writerSenior Contributor23 May 2025, 8:45 am AEST

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@MissGremlin all we can do is try 💖. Do you have supports around you to help guide you?

You can’t really think yourself out of OCD. The reason I’m stuck is because I don’t know how to unstuck myself. People may wonder whether you’re ready to move forward or make the effort. I am prepared to move forward but I don’t know how. These thoughts consume me

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creative_writerSenior Contributor23 May 2025, 8:56 am AEST

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@MissGremlin I don’t blame anyone but myself. Finding that new safe place will be hard. I can’t forget yesterday. SANE no longer has a drop in service, so I can’t go there either. I don’t qualify for guided service since it hasn’t been a year. Even if I stay on the forums, it’ll never be the same again

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