My life sucks

Hi @Cuddlebear are you here? ❤️

Any highlights from the week? @Blackcloud 🎉

Oh my gosh, that's PERFECT! I know how much you were wanting text communication. I can imagine this would help you to feel so supported. 💛

@AuntGlow @Well today for me was….something and I do need some support tonight

basically since the handyman didn’t come to my place to come and install the tv like they said he would, I’ve been pretty upset about how unprofessional he’s been with this and therefore I’ve been getting some anxiety physical related symptoms (it’s mostly the inner sensing type symptoms that’s related to my anxiety idk how to best describe or explain it). I tried reaching out to lifeline about it but the crisis supporters I spoke to were not helpful at all and so reaching out to them has made me feel worse due to how much they seemed unwilling to help or provide me some support.

It sounds like this was a really dysregulating experience for you @Blackcloud. I am so sorry to hear Lifeline weren't as supportive as you needed, that can be so disheartening. What is it that you feel like you need most in this moment? Just someone to listen or to help keep you safe?

@AuntGlow yeah someone to listen to as i dont have anyone i can rely on for support relating to these anxiety related symptoms im getting.

i think what caused me to get these sensations is because the last time the handyman came to my place to inquire me about the new tv he was gonna install, my interaction with him wasn't pleasant as he was asking me all these questions. plus his english wasn't that good so it was hard for me to understand but also willing to engage with him due to that. we also had a few moments were we were just looking at each other like 😐 so yeah him specifically is whats causing me to get those symptoms, especially when he hasnt even come to my place today to install the tv.

i literally left my house to be in the library to do my assignment so that i wont need to see him when he comes to my place to install the tv, but turned out that wasn't even the case and he actually didnt even come today 😑 on top of that, he has not responded to my last message since after i left my house this afternoon.. so, really frustrating experience....!! UGH

@Blackcloud How are you today? I’m sorry I wasn’t online last night.

I hope the tv person has messaged now and you can get the tv working. It’s not good he didn’t turn up and I’m really sorry he didn’t even tell you so you could make another time.

@Cuddlebear @He still hasn’t responded, so I wonder what’s going on or if he plans to come either later today or tomorrow, or could be next week….😐

on top of that, his English is not very good but I’m not gonna get started on my wrath towards people that speak poor English and all of that

and I’m not really feeling that great today but that’s just how I feel with every other days.

edit: oh wait, I just got an update from the receptionist of my accomodation, they said that it was because they didn’t have what’s called the “tv bracket” so the handyman left (oh, so he did came to the building yesterday haha)

@Blackcloud I can understand feeling anxious about this. It’s not too much to ask for them to let you know the time and day they are coming and to actually turn up. Is the property manager able to help sort it out? Or whoever manages the student accomodation?

@Cuddlebear I've actually just edited/updated my answer in response to what I've mentioned about the handyman not coming, I'm not sure if you saw it but initially I posted the above response as soon as I received a reply from the receptionist since I didn't think they were gonna resppnd to me that soon 😅

@Blackcloud I didn’t see the update until just now lol! I’m glad he did come and that reception got back to you quickly. What’s happening now with tv bracket?