Bear00Senior Contributor
Feeling Hopeless
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I am a 22 yo.
I have CPTSD and depression.
I was raised by toxic parents, who used to mentally and physically abuse me. After escaping from my family, I was raised by another toxic family (i was forced to believe in their cult, they constantly screamed at me etc).
I was bullied in my primary school and racially discriminated in highschool.
I have sexually abused by so many people.
I lost some people who I thought I could seek help from.
now I am experiencing workplace bullying due to my race. I told my manager and the HR but they not rly working on it.
I feel really hopeless. I had enough of this. I don’t want to continue being here, but i’m scared of dying.
I know there are some things I like about this world but I’m really tired. Idk what to do. I feel like I’m the problem and if I wasn’t here, there wouldn’t be any problems.
I have CPTSD and depression.
I was raised by toxic parents, who used to mentally and physically abuse me. After escaping from my family, I was raised by another toxic family (i was forced to believe in their cult, they constantly screamed at me etc).
I was bullied in my primary school and racially discriminated in highschool.
I have sexually abused by so many people.
I lost some people who I thought I could seek help from.
now I am experiencing workplace bullying due to my race. I told my manager and the HR but they not rly working on it.
I feel really hopeless. I had enough of this. I don’t want to continue being here, but i’m scared of dying.
I know there are some things I like about this world but I’m really tired. Idk what to do. I feel like I’m the problem and if I wasn’t here, there wouldn’t be any problems.
