Battles

@Flutterbug9 thankyou sweet. I just see it as things that have to be done cos i don't have a choice.

I'm glad you got out for a bit even if it wasn't your type of movie. You did well to go ☺️.

I have a doctors appointment and a phone appointment with my counsellor but I can't remember what days so have to wait for the reminders to come through.

My Lego has been shipped apparently so hopefully within the next few days.

How are you feeling today, lovely? @MissGremlin 🫶

Hello @AuntGlow, I'm struggling today. There's been moments today where I've just wanted to go to hospital to get help cos everything inside my head and body is a mess (I'm safe for now). I've gone from feeling everything to feeling rather numb other than anger.

I'm in bed with Casper now and I'm listening to an audiobook trying so hard to just keep going even if it's second by second.

Hey @MissGremlin ,

It sounds so so hard. I'm sorry you are struggling today. Good on your for finding comfort in Casper. Is there anything we can do to make it easier?

Also, if you feel you additional help, please contact helplines, or 000 if needed.

Hello @tyme, I'm trying to stay connected here but just laying low.

I've reached out to a crisis service earlier and a few times over the past few days but after saying what I'm thinking/feeling i shut down and end the chat.

You gotta remember that there are times you reach out and the support doesn't seem the best, but remember those times when you've phoned, and the person on the other side HAS been helpful?

Keep waiting for those moments @MissGremlin - remember those moments and keep reaching out.

@tyme but it's not that it's not helpful, the people I've connected with have been fine. It's just that I shut down and I can't communicate. I think it's cos I've gotten so used to services not helping me that even the thought of someone actually trying to help me is too much for me to accept 😞. Like I'm constantly waiting for that let down but then I end it on my own terms to lessen the pain of them doing it even if it wasn't what was going to happen. (I'm safe for now).

That's so hard to hear @MissGremlin . You deserve to feel supported.

I just want to also acknowledge the effort you are putting in to support others, even when it's so hard for yourself. It takes a lot of strength to be able to do this.

Also, thank you for letting the community know you are safe. I know this does not take the pain away, but hopefully, members will find a way to support you through this.

Do you watch the tennis? It seems like a lot of other members are watching the tennis at the moment?

I understand, and all of these feelings are more than valid @MissGremlin.

Hospital is always there, okay? You could even call Mental Health Triage - anything that might help you to feel supported right now. 💛

Casper and an audiobook sound really calming. What are you listening to?

Also, do you like candles and rain sounds? I find that so grounding. 🥰

Thankyou @tyme, I'm trying to do my best. Just mindful that I'm pouring from an empty cup and I've yet to find anything to refill my own cup.

I don't like watching the tennis or any sports.