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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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It's okay. There's no expectation for you to be here all of the time, my friend. I've been pretry quiet over the last couple of days because...I lose my words when my brain and my anxiety get loud and I start to feel down @MissGremlin

I just had to check that we were okay.

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@NightFury i hear you sweet. It's very much been the same for me but some other things going on aswell.

We are definitely ok. We still gotta work on our Gremlins and finish their heads ☺️

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We do. @MissGremlin they definately need heads with more than just the eye part because that makes them look a bit creepy.

I will be home all day over the next couple of days, so if you want to and feel up to it.

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@NightFury haha yes they do look a bit creepy 😂.

I'd definitely love to work on it and have no plans coming up other than a doctors appointment tomorrow.

Oh that's the other reason I haven't been on much is cos I'm not getting email notifications again, literally i get a day with them then 24-48 hours without them and then get bombarded with them when they start coming back through.

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The same is happening for me re the email notifications @MissGremlin I don't get them for a couple of days, then they all come through at once, then they stop again.

I am going to tap out. Sleep meds are kicking in. Good night, Dreamy. Hope to chat to you tomorrow.

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@NightFury it's really frustrating.

Night night sweetheart, will talk to you tomorrow ❤️

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Your.comments about the Gremlins needing their heads and looking creepy currently made me laugh 😆😊 thank you @MissGremlin @NightFury

Hmm the email issue would be very frustraiting. I hope they can figure out what it causing it. Given it is only some users and not others (eg i havent noticed a problem with notifications myself, i get a number each day) i wonder if it could be specific email hosts/providers (i.e. gmail, yahoo, hotmail, etc) and their spam filter / quarantine settings picking up on them sometimes due to the volume of emails?? 🤔 this would be at their server level - which could prevent them from ever touching your account (even spam folders).

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@AlwaysMyself hehe you're welcome for the laugh. They really do look funny though 😂.

I've noticed that it's been happening since the PSW's have been coming back though I'm not sure if it's related but prior to that I had no issues. Nothing is going to my junk mail although there was that issue previously for alot of us. It's the fact that I'll get them for a while but then they'll just stop, but then when they come through i get like 15-20 email notifications at once every few minutes. I've flagged it a few times before but don't like annoying them cos it usually ends up getting resolved.

Casper is being extra clingy tonight cos he picks up that I'm not feeling myself (I'm safe).

 

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Waiting for pic to come through of course, but glad to hear casper is with you @MissGremlin . 😊

Is it something you'd like to chat about tonight? (Im not yet sleepy, im on the forum on my phone in bed to wind down. I am lucky that i dont have sleep problems usually and using my phone actually makes me sleepy so its the opposite to normal "sleep hygiene" advice lol.)

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@AlwaysMyself haha oh I laugh. Do you know how many people tell me that i have sleep issues cos I'm on my phone when I'm in bed. It actually makes me sleepy too, so I'm glad I'm not the only one 😂.

I do want to talk about it but I've been struggling to think of how to word it and making sure it's safe/appropriate for the forums.

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