Battles

You can always take as long as you want to respond @MissGremlin 😊. I promise to never interpret it as a negative sign - unless you have stated that you will stop posting because you're upset with me lol 😂🤣. But then I'd leave you alone if that were the case anyway. *hugs* (I say this without anxiety, just with assuredness to you that I am not worried if you take time out and don't respond).

I imagine it would be horrible knowing that someone might be looking for you with ill intent. 😢. You are brave for recreating yourself after the incident. You are courageous. 😍

I am glad to say my dogs have been very well behaved tonight - I haven't heard a peep out of them since dinner time. 😊 They do generally sleep most of the time - which is why we chose Borzoi, due to their shared-nature with greyhounds. Oph, it's gotten so dark in the room that I can't even see where the dogs are 😅 I should probably put a light on or migrate to my bedroom also.

If/when you go to sleep I hope you have a good quality sleep, no nightmares, not too hot, and a snuggly dog to keep you calm and company. 😍

Hello @AuntGlow, how are you going sweet?

It was really tough and it sucks that other than listening to me she can't really do anything to support me. I have a doctors appointment on the 23rd and that's to do a mental health care plan and a referral, even that feels so far away and I sit and think how I'm supposed to make it until then. There was things I wanted to say to her but it's things that I'm very much scared to be judged for cos I know it's not right or normal.

All those things sound ok (and i do try to do them) but it's moments when everything hits hard and gets overwhelming that i forget about it all. My mind goes blank and into the dark thoughts and it consumes me.

Not sure if this needs a trigger warning.

I have been trying so hard to work on a safety plan but everytime I try the voices take over and tell me i don't need it cos they don't want me safe and that I won't be here much longer. (I'm safe for the moment). But this is what I'm constantly fighting against and I don't know how to challenge it or manage it cos it's all still new to me.

@AlwaysMyself ugh a heap of notifications and i missed this one 😂. If I'm going to take time out I usually try to let people know. I'm not one to get upset easily, it's more that I get overwhelmed with long posts and then struggle to reply. My brain struggles to comprehend things so replying to a long post requires me to scroll up and down a million times 😂.

It is horrible but I can't control what they do. I wasn't going to come back to the forums initially but honestly I need this space and I also love being able to support others here.

Awww they sound like such good puppers ❤️. Casper had fun doing zoomies earlier today and it made me laugh, he's such a goofy boy but he loves nothing more than to snuggle with me. Haha try having a black dog in the dark, all you can see is the glowing eyes occasionally 😂. Hence the name Casper cos in the dark he's like a ghost, invisible 😂.

Hoping it's a good night's sleep once I can get to sleep but that won't be for a while yet. Hope you can get a good night's rest also ☺️

Morning @NightFury my sweet, checking in with you today ❤️

It's my last day teaching today. Mixed big feelings. @MissGremlin

@NightFury oh sweet, i can understand that. I hope the day goes ok for you.

I'm here for you if you want/need to chat. Sending you hugs ❤️

How's the day treating you so far, my friend? @MissGremlin

Hugs @MissGremlin sorry to hear that you're having a rough day.

Thankyou @NightFury my sweet ❤️