Battles

@MissGremlin maybe instead of trying to fill your lungs, just focus more on pace?

I read somewhere that our heart rate increases slightly when we breathe in, and decreases slightly when we breathe out - so making the exhale longer than the inhale will eventually help slow our heart rate.

Oh that is so rough, two weeks can feel like an aeon when we're in a really dark place. Wonder if you called up a crisis line, would they help you re-do your safety plan? 🤔 Could be worth a shot - food for thought anyway.

It does make sense - but try to remind yourself that you don't owe 'wellness' to anyone, and just like you are always so understanding when other members are struggling, others are gonna be understanding for you too.

That is a big change, especially to your daily routine. Right now while things are heavy, maybe you could contact a crisis line in those moments where your body 'expects' you to be connecting with this service... It won't be the same, but it could help maintain a little bit of stability, which can go a long way during these times.

@Jynx my heart rate is ok surprisingly. My breathing is normal in that sense but just like I'm not getting enough air in, like the breaths are a struggle. I know I'm getting enough air and it's just my anxiety brain trying to tell me that I'm not.

I've distanced myself completely from crisis lines cos I've found that when I've tried to reach out (well to the one i can) its often made things worse.

I try to keep my problems to mainly this thread and keep things light in other parts of the forums so that not everyone has to read my struggles if they don't want to. It also helps when I'm feeling ok to avoid my thread and just have general/random chats in other threads. I know other people care and that's been shown so much when I've been struggling and so many people reach out to offer support. Just things have been so hard lately and it's been one thing after another.

Anyway I'm going to tap out. Thankyou for the support and I hope to chat to you another time.

Of course @MissGremlin - I will perhaps check in with you tomorrow, but if you need to take some space to focus inwards that is so valid. Look after your wonderful self. Squishy hugs comin atcha!

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Thankyou for the hugs @Jynx ❤️. I'd really appreciate the check in tomorrow but only if you can.

Hey there @MissGremlin, wanted to drop by to say I’ve been thinking of you 🙏. Sorry to hear about your family member as well.

I may have missed you here tonight but all good we can chat another time as I am also about to head to bed. I hope you can get some rest 💜

ps have some rough work days ahead might not be on that much but will try to touch base when I can 🙏

Hello @Chasingsunsets, thankyou ❤️.

Hope you had a good night's rest.

Good luck with those rough work days, I'm hoping they go quickly for you.

Hello @NightFury my sweet ❤️

Hello @MissGremlin how's your Saturday shaping up?

@NightFury I'm in bed, my head is pounding, my tummy feels funny and I'm so emotional. I have tears just constantly sitting in the corner of my eyes, ready to flow at the drop of a hat. Trying to be gentle with myself but you know what it's like when we think of ourselves as failing and question what's wrong with us. (I'm safe).

How's your day going sweet?

Morning @MissGremlin @NightFury 🙏