Battles

Gosh, this sounds so incredibly distressing for you @MissGremlin. Thank you for letting us know what you are going through... how does the idea of reaching out to nurse on call sit with you? I am just wondering if they can offer more immediate care whilst you wait for your GP to get back to you?

You are doing a wonderful job of reaching out and reminding yourself this is due to medication. What else can we do to help keep you in the 'here and now'?

I am so glad your counsellor is in this with you as well, she sounds very supportive and I am sure her determination is helping you to connect with your own inner determination too?

Please know you aren't alone. We are here for you, okay? 💖

@AuntGlow It's something I've thought about but the idea of making a phone call right now is a little bit too much. I'm worried cos my gp is going on leave but I don't know exactly when but there's noone else I can see when he does.

Right now it's just knowing that I'm not alone, knowing that something in my life is real (i know that sounds silly). I have tried to do things to keep myself grounded but can only manage to focus for a few minutes at a time.

Thankyou ❤️

It doesn't sound silly at all! And we are all here for you. @MissGremlin

What do you know to be true and real for you right now?

And that's okay, as long as you know the services are there. 🥰

@AuntGlow i know this space here is real but i don't feel real. I have my phone in front of me I can see it but when my hand touches it it's like I can't feel it, like it's not my hand. I'm holding Caspers paw, he's real, he's here with me. I want this feeling to be over, I want to feel like me again. (I'm safe, just scared).

I haven't been able to eat for the past 4 days now and even trying to take little sips of water has been hard (I told the receptionist at my doctors surgery about this too).

Safe but scared makes sense. @MissGremlin it sounds like Casper is a good source of grounding for you right now, which I am happy to hear.

I am glad you have been talking with your professional supports, it sounds like you are doing all that you can to care for yourself today.

This really would feel scary... know that your forums friends are here to support you, okay? 💖

@NightFury @Shaz51

I read that you're having trouble with your new meds @MissGremlin. Just checking in on you this morning, my friend?

Hello @NightFury my sweet, sorry I wasn't able to get on for a bit as things were really intense for me. (I'm safe). How's things for you sweet?

It's really nice to hear from you @MissGremlin

I'm...

Riding a bit of an emotional roller coaster and my med increase is having an impact on my sleep. I'm still unwell and chesty.

I'm taking a day off tomorrow.

@NightFury sorry to hear it's been a bit of an emotional roller-coaster for you sweet and your sleep being affected sucks. Hope you feel better soon.

A day off tomorrow sounds like a good idea. Are you going to do some things for some self care?

I'm going to go and see my Scottish friend. We're going to go for a walk along the beach, get coffee and chat @MissGremlin so I guess you could call it self care.

I need something....to spend some time with someone kind and caring, that makes me feel seen and heard and held - in person connection. I need her gentleness and her mothering presence.