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@NightFury i hear you sweet. I'm sorry to hear that it's stirred up some emotions. It's understandable that you haven't really processed it given after his passing you had other things going on aswell so it's hardly given you a chance to process anything.

Have you been able to do some things to care for yourself tonight sweet?

I haven't yet @MissGremlin but I will.

I'm going to have a shower, then curl up with Luna.

@NightFury having a shower and curling up with Luna sounds perfect sweet ❤️.

Sending you hugs ❤️

Thinking of you @MissGremlin, even though your presence may be limited on the forum for reasons very understandable, little reminders still pop up of you and Casper, so we will always still be thinking of ya! 🥰🐶🐾

Take all the time that you need we will be here when you are ready 💜

Good evening @MissGremlin,

I am so sorry to hear that things are really hard at the moment... but I am so proud of you for listening to what you need right now. And I am glad to read that your GP is supporting you through more challenging period.

Please know that we are always here when you need us, okay?

You will be welcomed back with open arms. 🥰

Thinking of you @NightFury, I was also looking for a kelpie tee with coffee (for indi and I) and a heeler one for you and Luna when I saw the lab coffee one! But we will have to create our own 🐾🐶☕️

however might just go on a fun google later, there will be something cool I know it! The one above was just on a random one whilst insta scrolling 💜

Thankyou @Chasingsunsets ❤️.

Hehe that top is perfect 😊

Thankyou @AuntGlow ❤️.

So before I write this post know that I am safe and I'm working on getting better. Hoping that's enough to cover the recovery focused side of things. Please let me know if anything needs editing cos I don't want to get in trouble and I'm doing my best to get this out without saying the wrong thing.

Things have been spiralling for the past couple of weeks in many ways. I've lost motivation to do anything and my thoughts of Sui have been very intense which has led to SH as a coping strategy. I've been having nightmares which has led to me waking up having panic attacks throughout the night and even when I've tried to nap during the day. Throw in the flashbacks aswell that have been getting worse well I knew I needed help. So yesterday I had a doctors appointment, I told him what's been happening and said that I needed help cos I'm scared of myself and what might happen if things don't change. Now medications haven't been an option given my history and severe reactions to meds but something needs to give here. Anyway my doctor prescribed a medication to hopefully help, I was scared to get the script filled but after encouragement from my friend i worked up the courage to go to the chemist, I was so hopeful that this medication could help me. Then life threw another curve ball, the chemist told me that the medication was no longer going to be available in Australia and as such they didn't have it in stock. I was crushed, left thinking that things are never going to change, those Suicidal thoughts hit hard and I struggled to make it through the day. But I did and then this morning I rang my doctors and was able to get an urgent appointment. My doctor has now given me a different medication and I've taken the first tablet tonight, so I'm hoping that I don't react negatively to it and that it actually starts to help me so things can get better.

@Chasingsunsets @NightFury @rav3n @ENKELI @Bunniekins @avant-garde @Cuddlebear

@MissGremlin you are so brave sharing you struggles. I am praying the medication helps you and that you start to feel better soon.

I think we all understand how you are feeling and I want you to know I am sitting with you and holding your hand.
Check in when you feel up to it, whether you're able to or not please know we are with you and love you xo

Thankyou so much @ENKELI my sweet❤️. The past couple of days just got really tough and whilst I wanted to connect here I also found it hard to communicate. So I made that decision to step back so I could focus on myself and getting the right support given how I was feeling.