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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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Haha do you leave the daddy long legs or do they go outside too? 😂😂

Thanks I hope so! I have a few other symptoms to pair with this heart rate today but still definitely hopeful.
I am going to be the calmest I’ve ever been at the specialist to keep the heart rate as low as I can 😂😂

Oh interesting about your heart rate! Glad to hear I’m not the only one with a heart rate that goes fast but mines the other organ causing it’s rate, so if the other part just calmed it farm then all would be good 🤣. It just had one more day for it to behave lol!!


Geez I can see why you would have landed in hospital that’s pretty high. I am sure they have done all the testing and stuff to rule out other stuff? Get the monitor you wear for a day etc?

How is your heart these days is it behaving?

Ah I see might have to go for another walk maybe someone will call ya ? Lol


how did they go with the lights?

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@Chasingsunsets the daddy long legs usually get to stay as long as they stay out of my way 😂.

Well fingers crossed it behaves itself for you for the specialist appointment.

It's always the way when something happens at the last minute 😂. Honestly sometimes our organs just need to chill and all work together, it's not that hard 😂.

Yeah they've done extensive testing but it's still not come up with an answer, it's very frustrating. But when it goes so high my potassium and magnesium levels drop critically low so I end up with multiple IV lines in to replenish those. They've even done the whole medication to stop the heart temporarily in the hope that it will go back into a normal rhythm but that didn't work. Yes I've worn the monitor a few times. It gets scary especially when it goes into different rhythms and then you get hooked up to defib pads cos they are expecting your heart to stop.

It's been ok lately, but my heart rate is generally high so above 100bpm most of the time. It's had moments where it's been over 150bpm for a few hours but then it's settled down.

I had to send pics to the electrician of the lights which I did and I haven't heard back yet.

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😂😂 be warned the daddy long legs 😆

Thanks I’ll keep you posted! No morning and coffee for me tomorrow lol. Hope I can get up and stay awake for my appt lol 🤣🤣

Yeah I often think the same, nicely written there! it definitely it’s that head to just work together lol.

silly organs causing us trouble. I’m not surprised your levels dropped or even low in the first place causing the heart rate issues. I find the human body very interesting always a lot to learn about it that’s for sure.

i feel you re the interventions of the medicine and defib pads, sounds definitely worrying and I am sure you aren’t feeling good in yourself when your hearts going that fast. sorry you had to go through all that. It’s Good to know they have extensively investigated and that it’s stabilised mostly now.
Do you get any symptoms lately when it goes high?

If I wasn’t wearing my watch I’d have no idea my heart rate while sleeping ranging from 53-140 in the early hours so who knows. I am not sure I believe it so let’s see what happens


Hope the lights are fixed soon hope it takes less time than this toliet pipe lol

how are you feeling? I think I might try and get some rest, what’s your plans?

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@Chasingsunsets trying to stay awake with no coffee might be a challenge 😂.

That's the thing my levels are fine normally but they drop when it plays up. When it goes high i can feel it, and it feels like I'm running a marathon, my whole body gets shaky both inside and out. Then there's the chest pains that radiate through my back and up into my jaw, my oxygen levels drop at times aswell. I try to avoid hospitals at all costs so I give it a good chance to settle on it's own but have to be careful cos the heart can get exhausted quickly and well that wouldn't be a good thing.

Sometimes the watches aren't accurate but it's still worth keeping an eye on just to make sure.

I'm going to try to get some sleep here aswell. I hope you can get some rest. Thankyou for your company tonight, it's really helped me ❤️.

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Night @MissGremlin I’ll reply later so we can both try get some sleep ☺️

Night to Casper too 🐶🐾

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@Chasingsunsets Night night to you and Indi ❤️

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Morning @MissGremlin

Checking in on you this morning. How are you doing over there?

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Morning @NightFury my sweet, I'm awake. I'm not feeling great today in many ways (I'm safe).

How are you feeling sweet?

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I'm awake. I've made it to work, but it should be a quiet day because I have lots of time off class today.

My brain is foggy and I'm struggling with a heavy head. @MissGremlin

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@NightFury i hear you sweet. Sending you hugs ❤️

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