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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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We're back from our walk @MissGremlin it's going to be a nice weather day. The sun is out and it's got a bit of warmth to it.

Thank you for the reminder to take it a step at a time. My brain doesn't work in steps, it tends to see everything that could go wrong. So...it's hard for me to remember to do that when my initial response is to see all of the bad outcomes.

So...

Step one: make it through a working day

Step two: get to the interview.

I'm glad you're safe, my friend. I'm here if you want to chat about what's happening for you. No pressure though. Hugs.

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@NightFury sounds like a lovely day weather wise 😊.

I hear you and my brain is the same so I get it.

Yes those 2 steps are perfect and most importantly remember to breathe and know that you're not alone ❤️.

Thankyou sweet, i will chat later on. My focus this morning is doing my routine first and then when i get back taking Casper for a walk 😊.

Thankyou for the hugs, sending you hugs too beautiful ❤️

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Morning @Chasingsunsets, sleep was hard to come by last night as I kept getting disturbed. Hope you got a good night's sleep 😊.

Having a trained dog is a must for me, for me my dogs have never just been a pet they are my family and so they must be well behaved which thankfully I've been lucky with apart from one girl that I had.

I think you jinxed the walking and talking thing, I had a phone call come through just after I'd started my walk 😂. Turns out the land agent has decided to organise an electrician to come out and replace some old fluorescent lights.

How's the morning been for you so far?

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Morning @MissGremlin ☺️, ah that’s no good re getting disturbed I also didn’t get to get until pretty late aswell, definitely tired today!!

Just have to be up early to eat breakfast before PT 😜 otherwise I’d definitely still be asleep lol.

Not even a breaky person either lol 😅. Probably because I’m normally asleep haha.

Nice to chat to you whilst I’m eating 😊

Yessssss I know right re trained dogs!! I think al my dogs have been better from the last with what they know.
I have a real passion for dog training and just having an all round good dog, to know I can walk indi without a lead and she’ll stay in a heel unless I tell her otherwise or from a distance I can tell her to sit, drop, stand or come back to a heel is awesome. We have worked hard though. She gave me a run for my money when she was in her teens stage lol!!

Not a lot of people share the passion for dog training hey! So interesting!

awesome that you share the passion for sure!

Have you done any trick training with mr Casper or as assistant dog work or other things 😊

Scent work has been by far the most favourite thing I have done with indi I think!!


Oh lol being jinxed !! How funny!! How awesome though def a big plus of the lights I bet you are glad you answered 😊

Hows your morning been? How was your walk, did you see anything cool, different or interesting ?

Ita overcast here! So maybe some rain soon, been hearing the frogs so that’s been nice 🐸

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@Chasingsunsets my tooth that broke the other day is starting to cause me pain so that kept me awake aswell. Ahh things are never ending sometimes.

Haha i don't eat breakfast either, i mean I'll have a coffee sometimes but that's it 😂.

That's so good that you have gotten to that point with her, it also feels like such an achievement, like all the hard work paid off 😊. Casper is still very much a puppy but he mostly walks calmly on lead with only minimal pulling, he'll get there.

Casper knows some tricks such as giving paw, he can wave, he will give hugs (lifts both his paws up and wraps them around your arm), he does stand (imagine a meerkat) and he knows spin. I'm sure there's others too.

I'm glad i took the call but I also hate the idea of someone being in my house, but this guy has been here before so it's not as bad.

Morning has been a bit stressful but the walk was nice apart from the flies being annoying 😂. Nothing else interesting out there today.

Hearing the frogs would be lovely, it's sunny here today so I'm hiding out inside for the rest of the day.

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@MissGremlin Ahh that damn tooth. Clove oil I have heard is good for tooth aches but I haven’t tried it myself and my friend says it tastes bad lol. But if you aren’t winning least there’s another option for ya. Sorry about it not tasting good though 😜


Oh yes we def missed that memo at school being breakfast being the most important meal of the day lol.

Im so looking forward to hearing all the things you choose to teach Casper. It’s so rewarding when then get the hang of something new that you teach them!! He’ll definitely get there! He’s got a great mum to teach him everything he needs to know 🙏


He knows so much!! Look at him go! You have done so with him!!!
I think the hardest party trick I taught Indi was ‘burrito’ 🌯lol. So have her pick up a towel edge and roll herself in it 😂. Took ages!!!!!!

so there you go if you’re bored or I know you are always up for something challenging so might be one in your back pocket you might be keen to teach at some point haha. If not I totally get that too, so def no pressure 😊

Ah yeah I’m the same, I want this pipe fixed but it did make me clean up a bit 😂😂😂. Still waiting to hear 😵.

Indi doesn’t bark but if I don’t know who’s at the door I ask her to bark to keep them on the back foot and hold her collar like she might be unruly haha. Because she isn’t a barker her barks are loud and slightly uncontrolled they are pretty funny 😂 sounds convincing if you didn’t know her though.

The outcome in the end of new lights sounds amazing though will be well worth it hopefully 🤞


Ahhh flies kept you busy hey, gosh they can be annoying. Glad they weren’t your breakfast any extra protein lol. I have coped a few in the mouth before - no good haha.

got to duck off now but will come by again after PT and check in. speak soon 😊

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Hello @NightFury my sweet. Just thought I'd check in to let you know that I'm thinking about you. Hope the day is going ok for you. Sending you hugs ❤️.

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I'm feeling really super nervous. @MissGremlin

I have a headache and my belly is all stirred up because of the nerves.

How are you doing?

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@NightFury oh sweet, i hear you. Those nerves are completely valid, just try to remember to breathe sweet. You've got this, sending you hugs ❤️.

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Interview done. It's out of my hands now @MissGremlin

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