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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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Morning @MissGremlin

I feel a little lost today...

Unsure of what to do with myself. Decision paralysis is a thing...

How are you?

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@NightFury do you not have work today my sweet?

I'm okayish.

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@MissGremlin it's Show Day today, so it's a public holiday.

Having a public holiday in the middle of the week is weird and throws everything off.

This is where I'm currently at. People keep telling me I need to celebrate finishing my Grad Cert. and I want to do something. I want to take myself out for lunch and go to the movies.

But...today feels weird and because it's a public holiday there will be lots of people around.

And, I really need to give Luna a hair cut and bath! And part of me just wants to give myself a day off. Get those two jobs done and then rest...something that I hardly ever get a chance to do.

You're okayish? Aw hun, I'm here if you need.

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@NightFury ahhh yes having a public holiday in the middle of the week definitely throws everything off.

Ok i hear you, celebrating getting your Grad cert is a great idea. But it also doesn't have to be done immediately if you're not up for it. There's no reason why you can't do something on the weekend or even next weekend or whenever feels right for you.

You deserve a day off especially after a rough time lately and there's absolutely no shame in having a rest day. If it was me I'd get those couple of jobs done and then see how I was feeling after.

Thankyou, just feeling not myself today but I'm ok. I'm about to take Casper for his first proper walk then I'll come back home and maybe do my puzzle or lay on my lounge and watch a movie.

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@MissGremlin that's what I want to do, and then I don't have to do them on the weekend and I can then go out and do something to celebrate on Sunday and it'll feel less weird. My brain is complicated.

Have fun walking Casper! I bet he's going to love all the smells and change of environments.

It sounds like you have a good plan for the day. I need to get in the shower and maybe start those couple of jobs. I also have a new puzzle to start.

I'm around today if you need. Hugs!

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@NightFury i don't think your brain is complicated at all, i think it makes perfect sense to get those things done today and to go and do something on Sunday to celebrate 😊.

I did it, i took him for a walk! A little proud of myself cos I always talk myself out of it at the last minute but I actually did it 😊. He did very well with only minimal pulling, although it was funny when he got startled by a big rock 😂. I was even brave and said morning to a couple of people that walked past us.

Hope you enjoy the shower and can get those jobs done quickly so you can rest. Ooohhh what puzzle have you got?

Thankyou and thankyou for the hugs too. Sending some back your way sweet ❤️.

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Well done! @MissGremlin

Sounds like you both pushed out of your comfort zone. Proud of you, my friend. I probably woulda laughed when he got startled by a rock. When Luna was a puppy she was scared of everything and spent weeks refusing to go for a walk because she got startled by a leaf blowing past her. Sweet little things.

I have another colourful one to do....

 

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@NightFury thankyou my sweet ❤️. Haha awww poor Luna, Casper is usually ok with things as he goes places with me but there's still so many new things in the world to explore. I want to make it a daily thing cos it's good exercise for both of us 😊. I think i broke him though, he's a bit tired now, we only went around the block 😂.

Ooohhh that puzzle is gorgeous 😍

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Ah, clean sheets are the best!! @MissGremlin

Did you sleep well?

I like the rain and thunder too. It's been very windy and cloudy here (less fun).

Thank you for believing in me. 😭

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Good morning @AuntGlow

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