Battles

Yes, you're doing the thing and that is what matters. Perhaps your window of tolerance is expanding? @MissGremlin 🥰

Oh yes! What did you take away from your appointment?

Okay, so it sounds like she is ensuring you're well-supported, which is positive.

What are you hoping will happen? ☺️

She's all good now

7 seasons wow that's a lot I'll have to look into it

Haha not coping with change best thing is. You know what happens in the shows we watch 1000 times 😂 @MissGremlin this may sound like an old fashioned tv sho watch's the show called miss Fisher have you seen it?

@AuntGlow I'm not sure if it's expanding, I've still had my moments 😂.

Not sure i took anything away but it was more just being able to talk about things that have been going on recently.

Yes she is making sure I've got support regardless of whether that's with her or a therapeutic counsellor. It's nice to actually have someone trying to do the right thing and making sure I can get the support that I need.

Hmmm good question, I haven't thought too much about it. After the first appointment was cancelled I'd given up hope so it's now something I guess I can try to look at again. Just maybe not when I've got a migraine. For tonight I think some sleep is in order and snuggles with Casper.

@Sunnyside226 glad she is all good now.

It's a good show, I mean it's an older one now but I still enjoy watching it.

Yes that's what I love about things i watch all the time, i know what's happening so I don't always have to focus on it. I have heard of it but never watched it myself. I want to watch the big bang theory again but it's not on any of the streaming apps.

Hey @MissGremlin it’s good to hear the appointment went ok, from what you mentioned to @AuntGlow (and I could be wrong, so definitely feel free to correct me) but it sounds like your current therapist is hearing you out and at the moment you feel better supported, perhaps some hope/confidence has been restored with your current therapist at the moment post appointment?

Not to take away from Dreamys thread @AuntGlow but I did want to briefly mention that I love the window of tolerance concept!! They mention that concept in emdr a lot, in the stuff I have read. Happy to flick to another thread though if there is one about emdr etc 😊

I hope your migraine improves tonight with some rest @MissGremlin!

Hello @Chasingsunsets, yes she is listening and at the moment it's still early days. I've only spoken to her twice now and given the fact that trust was broken after the first appointment it's going to take a bit to feel able to be honest and open again with her. But I'm also choosing to give her a bit of leeway here as I could hear the sincerity of her apology and understand her reasons for the lack of contact.

There's alot of things to go through with her and its just not possible to even get through everything that's happened in my life so it's a matter of choosing the things that have the biggest impact on me currently and then working out what could best support me moving forward. Something I'm not great at is knowing what's needed in order for me to successfully move forward, like I get stuck when questions are posed to me which is why I often like to get a bit of advice and bounce ideas around here.

It's a bit after 2am for me and I've woken up for some silly reason. But on the plus side my head doesn't seem to be hurting as much so I'll take that as a win 😊.

Morning @NightFury my sweet, how are you feeling?

Morning @MissGremlin

I feel...a bit groggy and tired, but at the same time anxious in the belly. I'm already going through the conversation I want to have with my psychologist in my head, so I think that's making me feel anxious.

I had a strange dream early this morning - I dreamt that I was living back at home with my Mum and brother - for some reason my Dad wasn't around. I was packing a bag because I was going to stay at my Aunt's house and my Mum was going to send my brother to stay with a friend. And then, something clicked and I started yelling and having an argument with my Mum saying..."You're sending me away to make it easier on yourself. But it's not for the good of anyone, it's because you don't want to deal..." I swore a lot and argued a lot and started to unpack my bag and that's when I woke up. It's an odd thing to dream about.

I start at 9 am this morning instead of 8 am, so I'm heading to grab a barista coffee soon. I've just gotten back from taking Lu for a walk.

How are you today?

@NightFury hear wanted you to know that I've read your post, I'm just in the middle of my morning routine so I will reply shortly.

Thinking of you my sweet and sending you hugs ❤️.

@NightFury sorry to hear you are feeling groggy and tired. Can understand the anxious feeling, it's good that you are thinking about the conversation you want to have with your psychologist though.

That sounds like a very odd dream but just remember it's exactly that, just a dream. I know it doesn't stop some uncomfortable thoughts and feelings that may come about from it though.

I hope you enjoyed your coffee and I'm sure Luna loved her walk 😊.

I will check in with you a little later today but I'll be around if you want to message at anytime. I'm here for you sweet, you've got this ❤️.