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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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Good afternoon @MissGremlin,

Aww every other level being good is amazing!! My Vitamin D is always low, so you're not alone there. Something I am learning is that our bodies are very adaptable and strong, more than we may realise. So I have faith that you are able to shift where your insulin is at. 💖

Oh you absolutely should look into the guided recovery program!! I think that's a great idea.

Thank you, Dreamy. 🥹

How are you today?

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Hello @AuntGlow, today's been weird. Feeling very out of it, i went for a nap before and woke up feeling very shaky. Just laying in bed now while I calm myself down before having to get up and go to the shops.

It would just be really helpful to have some support at the moment and I've been told about it by several people who have had good experiences with it.

How's your day going?

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Hello @NightFury, how's your day been sweet?

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Oh sometimes naps throw me off too! How are you feeling at the moment? @MissGremlin 💖

I am very much looking forward to you exploring this option, I think it will be so helpful. 🤩

Today is going well, I am finishing up soon and will head to hot pilates.

I will definitely chat more to you on Sunday.

🥰

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@AuntGlow I'm feeling ok, still very tired though. Anxious feelings have sort of crept in at the moment but I'm keeping myself busy with my puzzle, music and Casper cuddles.

I shall see if I can make a phone call on Monday and go from there. Phone calls are my enemy though 😂.

Hope you enjoy the rest of your day and Pilates.

Look forward to chatting on Sunday. Take care of yourself beautiful ❤️

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Hi @MissGremlin checking in on you today my friend.

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Hello my sweet @NightFury, I did tag you earlier today but not sure if you got it?

I'm doing ok but sitting with alot of anxiety tonight. I'm sitting in my bed now with my music and Casper.

How are you going sweet?

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Hello @Chasingsunsets, I keep missing posts, I do apologise.

Today was another warm day here but then we had thunderstorms, it's nice and cool now. I ended up having a nap a bit after lunch today, the heat really does take it out of me.

I get in those moods occasionally where I go crazy with cleaning but usually it's only my pantry that gets a full clean out 😂.

How has your day been?

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I didn't see it, I'm so sorry @MissGremlin

It sounds like you're doing a great job sitting with the anxiety. You have your best buddy beside you. How's the puzzle coming along?

I'm...

Tired. I worked for hours last night on my assignment draft, then had a call with student support who helped me edit and finish my good copy. I worked for two hours on it again tonight. I've now got to create a powerpoint presentation and video myself presenting it. Which, will be a weekend job.

I'm also struggling with the early work mornings, but my body will hopefully re-adjust to that.

I'm also processing. I think I want to talk to my psychologist next week about the fact that...I think I might have OCD...it feels vulnerable.

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@NightFury that's completely ok, I've missed many posts recently due to either missed notifications or just struggling to keep up with them all.

Puzzle is slow progress, I'm just doing small bits at a time at the moment. I was talking to AuntGlow about looking into the guided recovery program for some support.

Can imagine you would be tired, you have done so well and I'm so proud of you sweet. I hope the creating of the PowerPoint and video goes ok for you over the weekend. Remember to take some time for self care in between things ❤️.

I hear you with the early morning starts, getting back into routine is tricky. The Christmas holidays i find are the worst cos its such a long break.

Talking to the psychologist about the possibility of ocd is a big step, but remember you're in control of what and how much you want to share. You don't have to decide right now, maybe see how you feel closer to the appointment.

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