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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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@NightFury @MissGremlin thank you guys, appreciate it!!! 😊

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@Blackcloud @MissGremlin @rav3n I have a job interview tomorrow morning and I can't do anything to mess it up.

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@NightFury that's exciting, you've got this sweet. I'll be thinking of you and cheering you on ❤️

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@NightFury ahhh the job interviews...not a fan of those. I understand how scary and nerve-wracking it can get, but I believe in you and you can do this! Take some deep breaths if you can 🙂 I will cheer you on xx

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oh amazing! @Blackcloud definitely sounds like such a relief!

@MissGremlin hoping the music helps! i love listening to old songs (well not 'old', but songs i enjoyed in the past) on repeat. sometimes sad songs help me regulate my emotions... not sure if that's common or not!

@NightFury good job on getting the interview- and good luck!! i think you'll do amazing 💖

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@Blackcloud @MissGremlin @rav3n

It's at the same school, but for a different position. I'm interviewing for the Kindergarten teacher position. At the moment I'm teaching Grade 5/6.

It's a big thing. The position I currently hold is contracted until December. So after December, I might not have a job. Which means that I lose my house because I don't have an income to pay the rent.

The position I'm applying for is ongoing.....so guaranteed work for next year and pay over the Christmas holidays.

It means security, in a world that feels very insecure for me at the moment.

I just...feel...it's complicated.

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@rav3n yeah there's alot of songs i grew up with in my play list. There's a mixture of up beat songs and sad songs, every now and then i will have to skip a song depending on the moment.

Unfortunately it's not really helping and things just feel like they are spiralling faster than I can keep up with them. Yes I've made that choice to reach out to lifeline to try to get through this. Keeping connected here while I'm waiting and hoping I can keep pushing through in the meantime.

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@NightFury that's a big difference going from year 5/6 to kindergartners but a fun age to work with.

I know it's a really big thing for you and it would mean so much to have that security in these uncertain times. I truly wish you the best with it sweet ❤️

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Hello @AuntGlow, how are you going?

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I am doing okay @MissGremlin! How have things been for you today? Anything made you smile? 🥰

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