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@Jynx oohh hmmm I wonder 🤔. I can have candles on but usually only when there's a light on, but I also struggle with the scents of the smelly ones cos they give me headaches.

Oh yes I love the galaxy projectors, I have a couple of the cheap ones but yeah they aren't that great. Don't know why they have to be so expensive, well actually why everything has to be so expensive 😂.

I hope it does, I've had it set up many times but just can't do it. Today was the first day I did some of my puzzle in like a week. I've completely lost motivation to do anything.

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let life take you to where you need to be?

@Jynx i guess...its hard when you have to endure having physical symptoms that links to the mental health issues and past experiences that THEN leads you to have those mental health issues in the first place and then those issues then contribute to the physical symptoms in your body. I never thought that I would be suffering from IBS flare ups from time to time especially throughout my adulthood now. That, on top of the fact itself that loneliness can k!ll you is why I need to have connections including here on the forums throughout this time so that I don't need to feel this way and that I can't talk to somebody whenever I'm going through these tough times.

@Blackcloud rest first my sweet, the cleaning isn't going anywhere.

Dealing with IBS is so horrible, I've never been diagnosed with it but it's there, I just can't go through with having a colonoscopy cos that petrifies me. I really hope the flare up settles for you soon.

Oh my sweet i know it can feel that way and i really do feel the same way. We just have to have hope that things will change, there's no knowing when or even if but try to hang onto that little bit of hope. I'm sending you big hugs, you really do matter to me ♥️

thanks so much @MissGremlin i really need someone like you to sit here with me tonight, i really needed it. ❤️

yeah i've just read a comment from a commenter on a youtube video i've watched and they said that whatever your mind goes, the body follows it. But yeah at the same time I am trying to hold onto that bit of hope as well ❤️

@Blackcloud we've got you sweet, you are never alone here ❤️.

I struggle to hold that hope for myself at times, when things feel so dark and like they will never get better it can be so hard to see any hope. But it's there even if it's only a tiny glimmer right now ❤️

@MissGremlin I wish all the time that I can have someone in real life (like a really close friend) that I can always talk and hang out with to reduce/decrease my social isolation (i wouldn't say 'loneliness' cause that is a very depressing/negative word to say) and to have some connections i guess? even though I don't feel lonely when I'm alone all of the time so that's a good thing i guess.

but then there's also cons when it comes to having connections with someone in real life (for me personally since I've experienced it and it's sad knowing that things have always gone this way for me)

@Blackcloud i completely understand, I've got noone myself in real life. I don't want lots of friends i just want even one close connection, just to have company every now and then. It's good that you don't feel lonely even when you are alone.

Yes having connections comes with it's own challenges. I've struggled all my life with making and keeping friends.

@MissGremlin same, I too don't want to have lots of friends either. even just having like probably one or so friend (I think one might be better but who knows if I want two, three, four etc...friends) is more than enough i would say. I used to have a couple of different friends when I was in school but none of my friendships with them have lasted long. I do know for a fact that as kids and teenagers a lot of them (including everyone i went to school with when we were kids and teenagers lol) don't tend to understand or know any better about someones issues and why that person acts or usually does things the way they do. also, the way we think is different too - neurotypicals vs neurodivergents

@Blackcloud yeah just having one or a few but I don't think i could handle too many. I did once, I used to have a group of friends until I got into a relationship and he made me cut contact with them all, unfortunately being young and naive that's exactly what I did. Ever since then I've just never been able to make friends and if I do it doesn't last so I've given up trying. Yes the way we think is different and not everyone understands or is accepting of that which really makes things so much harder when all you want is connection.

@MissGremlin ach, the trade off for being a sensitive soul seems to be inhabiting a sensitive body, gosh darn it! Big lights, noisy places, itchy tags, smelly candles, it's never ending! 😅

omg right, everything is so pricey!! I just wanna exist! Most of the cheaper ones also use green lasers for the 'stars' and idk that just bothers the space nerd in me too much 🤣

Ahh see you're seeing the loss of motivation as a loss, rather than seeing that you did find it again!! It's just a little elusive 😋

@Blackcloud yeah hun, you nailed it hey. It's a self-perpetuating cycle that I think a pretty hearty chunk of the forums community can relate to 😓 It's why this community means soooo much to me. Because we all deserve to have a safe space to be seen, heard, and accepted exactly as we are, no matter how messy that happens to be!!

Also seeing the two of you connecting so much warms my wee heart, just sayin 💜