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@MissGremlin

I was just catching up on the thread in between getting hailed on, blown away, assignment work, and just well... you know... dealing with everything else.

I read about you're struggles with coming up with a safety plan. Weirdly, that is exactly what I've been doing with my current assignment. They're not fun, even when it's just for an assignment! There are a lot of templates online and apps available to help create one, since i've looked at quite a few for my assignment.

I get that it may be too much to do publicly here for you, but maybe you could start with just asking for some ideas on what sort of things people would put in them and then adapt those ideas to what suits you best. It really can talk a lot of introspection doing these plans and would be hard, but not impossible, to do alone.

So please try not to feel like you're not wanted here anymore. I'm not sure if there are other things going on behind this feeling at all, but can only just remind you that we are all here to help you however we can and we know how difficult things are for you. And I know it can feel like we need to just stop asking for help at times, like we're not worth it, but it's important at those times more then ever, to remind ourselves that people wouldn't help if they didn't want to. And to think how we both would be the first person to jump in and help someone else in a similar position to ourselves. I mean who would laugh at my cheesy jokes, and ready my long and meandering posts that feel like they never make a point if you weren't here anymore? 😁

Also keep in mind that your presence here is not just in this thread. You take time to reply to other people who are having their own difficult times. That's what this place is all about. So I would just like to say that I for one, would miss chatting to you quite a lot if you left. Even when it's not all laughs and stupid jokes. Some of the jokes are quite clever if you really think about them. 🤣

So i guess I just want to be that other little voice in your head that says "stay" and know that you are valued here, and that we'll always try to do what we can to support you, just like you do with others. If you feel like there are things that are beyond the support you can get here, then just let us continue to support you with the things we can.

@MJG017 i can't even begin to read this right now.

But you have impeccable timing with your message. I was just about to tag the peer support workers. I'm ok but I just really need company right now or someone to sit with while I get through this moment. So if you aren't busy I'd love to have a chat.

@MissGremlin Urgh. I would love to support your post, but it won't let me. You are very welcome.

I'm kind of fluctuating a little today. I'm working on my assignment and it feels huge at the moment, huge and long-winded and my brain is slowly drifting into brain fog mode. I've been at it for a couple of hours now and not even half way through. I woke up feeling really icky, and battling my thoughts. I managed to do some meditation, some breathing and some self-care and now my focus is on getting this assignment written and done. It's pushed them to the background so, okay for now.

You know...I just want to say, I saw your posts yesterday and that's something that comes up for me sometimes too - not really the should I stay or should I go debate, but frustration and feeling like a burden, feeling like...I need to reach out, I want to reach out, but people are busy and I'm just being overly needy. I can relate to it. You're not alone there.

My initial response, I've noted is to go into....like...withdraw mode and my brain kind of goes, "I'm needy, I'm a burden and I'm too much, so I'm just gonna slink away with my tail between my legs and deal with my own thoughts of how alone I feel." But once that's passed, I start to be able to think more clearly and have a different perspective on things. We just have to somehow get passed that initial response, I think it's that hurt part in us, the part of us that learnt it was better to be silent about how we feel because when we did reach out, our needs weren't met and it hurt, so it became a protective instinct.

Coming up against it on the forums are kind of teaching me to go - I see you, I feel you and I'm listening. I learn to sit with it, acknowledge it, let it say what it needs to say and then take a step towards meeting its needs. It's very much a work in progress and it comes up regularly for me, so I'm far from an expert at it though.

@Jynx @Ru-bee @RiverSeal @rav3n @AuntGlow if anyone is around please. I'm ok but having a really rough moment right now and trying to bring myself back into that safe zone with how I'm feeling.

Just want to not feel so alone right now and maybe have some little chats, and i say little cos I really can't process anything at the moment.

@NightFury i can't even begin to read this right now but I will when I can. I'm sorry.

Hey @MissGremlin, nice to see you on the Forums today! What have you been up to lately? Any colouring in those lovely pictures you do!!! RiverSeal ❤️

Hi @RiverSeal, I just finished one last night which I'll try to put up at some stage today. Have been working on a jigsaw puzzle mostly but very slow going.

How are you going?

Amazing @MissGremlin! Puzzles are lots of fun and fill time well! What's the image going to be when you are done?

I had my last assignment graded yesterday, so have officially finished TAFE!! Yay 🙌 Learning how to fill the days I was at TAFE with other things, which is fun!

RiverSeal 🙂

@RiverSeal it's marbles 😊.

Well done for finishing tafe, that's an incredible achievement 😊.

Thank you ❤️

Love to see what you have done of the marbles so far @MissGremlin if you want to post it!

I'm sure the other Members in the community would like to see it too!

Don't discount the value of having chats with other Members and answering big posts later when you are more up to it 🙂

RiverSeal