Battles

@MissGremlin

Yep, medication all sorted. Oncologist gave me two protocol forms so next time I can order 2 months worth at a time.

And yes, trying to stay inside an warm as much as possible. I'm over winter already! 😂

You need to 'get your skates on' to finish that last Lego kit. 🤣 I know i know... I groaned at that one as well, but I couldn't resist.

@MJG017 so glad it's sorted and that's good that you can get 2 months worth next time.

It's definitely cold today, thought it was funny when I went to the shops and the sun actually came out then when I was back home it started raining again 😂.

Bahaha love it. Love the cheesy jokes 😂

@MissGremlin did I read that Casper is doing better?

@NightFury you did 😊.

How are you going?

@MissGremlin woohoo! Oh my gosh that makes me feel super relieved for the both of you.

I don't know how I am. I'm just...bone weary. I worked, then came home to study for 3.5 hours.

I'm now curled up on the couch with Luna, in my Oodie because it's freezing, just trying to figure out how I feel and how I am.

How are you?

@NightFury its definitely a big relief all around.

I feel that, I'm completely exhausted after last night. Don't know how you managed to study today, so well done. I couldn't even do any of my puzzle, I just sat there and stared at it.

I'm getting ready to curl up on my bed with Casper and do some colouring, well maybe.

It's super cold here today aswell. Be gentle with yourself, feelings and knowing how you feel isn't easy when things are so tough.

So all in all I really feel like I'm only existing at the moment rather than actually living. Slowing things down again and taking it one moment and one breath at a time.

@MissGremlin yeah, I just go through the motions with work. So, I totally get the feeling of just existing.

I don't know how I do it either, and I'm not convinced it's a good thing - this ability to run myself into the ground.

@NightFury yeah that's all I do, go through the motions of daily life. Just feel like I'm on autopilot.

We seem to be good at just pushing ourselves until we quite literally burn out. It's not a good thing but we do what we have to do.

@Jynx i have a question for you but I'm scared to ask it. I don't want to get in trouble.

@MissGremlin I feel like if I actually stopped pushing though, I would collapse into a heap.