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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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exactly!! it was a hard watch for me @MissGremlin you used to dance right? did you ever watch dance moms or those types of shows?

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@rav3n i used to yes. I've watched some episodes of dance moms but again it's not something I like to watch. I don't remember any of the things I used to do other than the ice skating. Like I know i did them but I don't have any specific memories from them. It's like the trauma has pretty much erased all the good things that have happened.

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sucks that trauma messes with the good memories. i remember more of the bad times then good too, sometimes its a weird blur and time feels distorted. @MissGremlin

maybe that's why i like living in my imagination. i just make up stories to distract, i create a whole character and backstory (which usually i steal from tv shows).

what's your thoughts on astrology?

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@rav3n but there's like not even much that I can remember at all, sometimes it feels like my memory has been wiped.

My imagination is really crappy, I struggle to imagine things.

I like astrology and i think it's amazinv but because I can't comprehend information i don't try to learn much about it or anything.

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@MissGremlin is interesting how the brain tries to protect us by blurring or wiping memories.

maybe imagination isn't your thing, but your humour and quick wit - love it! even though sometimes its like slightly dark humour... even better haha.

oh yay! it's not often i hear nice things about astrology hehe - i agree with you, it's so fascinating but A LOT to take in for sure. wish there was a way we could transfer info into our brain instantaneously. the reminds me, when i was a kid i tried to sleeping with a textbook under my pillow because i heard someone say that the info transfers into your mind in your sleep 😂

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@rav3n interesting and also annoying.

I do have a dark sense of humour sometimes 😂. I figure if I don't laugh then I'll cry.

If only it was that easy to put information into our brains. Haha that's gold, if only it worked that way 😂.

Ugh, why isn't it bedtime yet. I'm so done with the world today.

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@MissGremlin agreed.

humour's my coping mechanism too hehe. if i'm going to cry, let me at least cry from laughing too hard at something.

time loves to slow down when we need it to speed up!! are you working on some colouring at the moment?

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@rav3n haha yes. That whole crying from laughing too much is a whole mood in itself 😂.

I feel like the day has just dragged on. I'm working on a couple at the moment but very slow progress.

Now that it's night time and it's time to try to settle down I'm being hit with every negative thought possible.

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@MissGremlin do you mean astronomy 🔭?

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@Glisten i read it as astronomy 😂. But I do also find astrology interesting in itself.

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