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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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@NightFury i hear your sweet. Just remember to breathe. I'll be thinking of you ❤️

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That's okay! I am very glad you got some sleep. 😴💛 @MissGremlin

I understand how it's hard to believe affirmations for ourselves... acknowledging our more loving internal voice takes time and that's okay. Do you notice if your emotional state changes at all when you're supporting others?

Aww Casper. Please give him a big hug for me tonight!

And thank you, I appreciate that very much. ✨

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@AuntGlow I'm not sure if I notice it changes but I become focused on supporting others rather than having to deal with my own problems. Sometimes it brings up alot of emotions though as I can genuinely understand how they are feeling.

I will do. Casper has been getting lots of cuddles today but he's always up for more ☺️.

Today's felt really heavy, I've tried so hard to not think about what day it is but it really hit me so hard earlier in the day. I really tried to keep connected here even when every part of me wanted to shut down. I've had many moments where things got too close for comfort and I'm not even sure how i actually got through those moments. I'm safe and sitting doing my diamond art.

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I understand @MissGremlin. 💛

Just brainstorming here... I wonder what it would be like to say those words to Casper? So that way, you're hearing them out loud, but indirectly nurturing yourself?

I completely understand why today would feel extra vulnerable for you... I am glad that you have been able to pour your love into Casper and reach out for support here, even when it felt hard.

I think it shows so much courage and growth that you were able to do this. 💛

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@AuntGlow I'm not really comfortable saying things like that out loud. Guess it's why I'm good at talking via chat/text rather than in person.

It's been good keeping connected here today and it kept me distracted for the most part. If I didn't push myself to reach out I'm honestly not sure how i would have gotten through the day.

Thankyou sweet ❤️. I'm just worried how hard it's getting to actually reach out though, like there's an internal battle that happens within. I'm safe and snuggled up with Casper.

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Morning @NightFury my sweet, checking in with you today ❤️

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I am doing okay over here @MissGremlin it's cold and goggy and I've just had breakfast. I'm sitting with a coffee and contemplating the day.

How are things over there?

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@NightFury glad you're doing ok, hope all goes well today with catching up with your friend sweet.

Things are rough here, I've had a cuppa and I'm about to head out in a bit but will only be out for about 20 minutes.

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Thank you @MissGremlin

I hope your trip out goes okay for you.

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@NightFury Thankyou sweet. I made it back home, now to relax until I have to go out this afternoon.

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