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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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Evening @MissGremlin, how’s your day been? Sorry I crashed hard after my post to you but I was really excited to show you hehe.

Hahah I’m still not sure about the icepole shape 😅. Really just wanted a cube and not sure about the eyes 😅. Funny in the shop, Kmart I just really couldn’t get past the icepole stick 😅. I was thinking why are they putting a hard stick with a squishy thing lol… anyway because there wasn’t any cubes I did buy it and immediately thinking of how I could get rid of the stick when I got home 😅. Turns out the stick is soft so it’s still attached for now 😅

My appointment when really well, everything is going to plan I think, however I did get more of that medicine and so I think that’s why I haven’t been feeling well all afternoon and evening. On the plus side I had a 3 hour nap which was well needed haven’t had much sleep over the last couple of days. But I know this medicine will only take the day and I should feel fine tomorrow 😎. Thanks for asking 😀


Hope you have had a nice evening 😊

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@Chasingsunsets it's been a pretty rough day for me, lots of anxiety today. I got an email this morning to say that I have a house inspection on the 7th, so I'm panicking about that. Going to just do little bits at a time and hoping i can manage it.

The stick is a bit of a silly idea but at least it's soft. I reckon the eyes are funny, but definitely strange to have on there. At least it's something to squish 😂. Hopefully you can find a cube one soon ☺️.

I'm glad everything is is going to plan, sucks about the medicine but at least the effects won't be for long. So good that you had a good nap, it's tough not being able to get much sleep.

Hope your evening has been going ok ☺️

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Sorry pressed send accidentally again @MissGremlin.

Thats a bit rough they really didn’t give you a lot of notice re the inspection :face_with_rolling_eyes:. But I like your plan of just bits at a time! Lots of strong coffee to help you through 😊

yess I cannot get over the stick 😅 but in the bright side it’s another tactile squish bit hehe.

The squish in the main bit is really good ☺️ so despite not having a cube it’s satisfying and fitting the brief somewhat lol.

Yes I am really keen on tomorrow and hopefully feeling better. Feel bad don’t have the energy to be on the rest of the forum but I think this has floored me so on the up side I think I’ll get a decent sleep tonight lol.


I saw a really cool bird today a collared sparrowhawk didn’t get great pics unfortunately but can’t wait to share on highlights when I have a bit more energy. Also saw a really cool moth! 😀. It took a lot to walk this evening after my big nap but it was really worth it! 😀

What’s on for you tomorrow ?

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@Chasingsunsets yes it's really not alot of notice but not much i can do about that. Just have to do the best I can and hope it's good enough.

I might have to make a trip to kmart to see if my local store has them, always love new squishies. It will do for now until a cube is found ☺️.

The rest of the forum isn't going anywhere, sometimes i only stay in my thread or just focus on one thread at a time. Hoping you can get a good night's sleep tonight and that tomorrow is a better day for you ❤️.

The bird sounds awesome, can't wait to see when you are up for sharing. I'm glad you still managed to get out for a walk ☺️.

Tomorrow I have the ex coming over to do the lawns and garden so it's going to be a hard day for me. Other than that I don't have anything on, just need to make a quick trip to the shops in the afternoon.

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Love your mindset @MissGremlin, that’s exactly right and will less notice least it won’t be hanging over your head. Maybe a new squishy can be your reward hehe 🥰🤩.

Thanks for having me on your thread hehe 😎. Always good to check in! So thankyou 🙏

yeah I wasn’t going to felt awful but indi wasn’t pretty insistent 😅 as we were already past walk time lol. I am very glad I could take it. Haven’t been able to go far but it’s been lovely just taking different routes, I kind of wonder why I have not done that before 😅. Always stuck to the same routes lol.

I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow, at least the lawns will look good 🤞, maybe another squishy purchase as a reward once he’s finished 😊

im going to head to sleep now. Lovely connecting as always, talk tomorrow if you’ll be around 💜

I hope you have a good night and manage to get some rest too 🙏

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@Chasingsunsets it's always a pleasure to have you here and to chat with you ☺️.

Hope you get a good sleep sweet, night night ❤️.

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@MissGremlin my beautiful, you will excel at the inspection, and knowing that your ex is coming over, remember that you are resilient and amazing. Remind yourself that you are such a blessing to others and make sure you are kind to yourself. Living in a constant state of anxiety is exhausting darling, make sure you give yourself rest.

My back and neck are really bad at the moment, I would love to get a massage but don't have the money to pay for it. I should check out the gym near me, just pay for a session in the spa and sauna.

Big hugs my love xoxo

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Night night, hope you have a good rest of your night and able to get some rest too 💜 @MissGremlin

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Night night @ENKELI 🙏, sorry I haven’t been around hoping to tomorrow. So many cockatoos and galahs around atm so many!! Was thinking of you again tonight 😊

Sorry to hear about your back and neck, I hope you can get some relief soon, gym and pool sounds good 🙏

@MissGremlin

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Thankyou @ENKELI sweetheart ❤️. Inspections are so hard espescially trying to do everything alone when my mental health is so messed up. The ex coming over to help with the lawns and garden comes at a cost to me in other ways cos I can't afford to pay someone to do the work. I'll do my best to be kind to myself even when it feels like i don't deserve that kindness. The anxiety is honestly horrible and exhausting, waking up during the night having panic attacks aswell as feeling on edge all day, it really takes so much out of me.

I'm sorry your back and neck are really bad, it's horrible being in so much pain. Getting to the gym to use the spa and sauna could help for some temporary relief at least.

Gentle hugs sweetheart, always remember how amazing and loved you are ❤️.

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