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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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@NightFury i hear you sweet. Sending you hugs ❤️.

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You not home yet @NightFury 🥰

Hugs ❤️ @MissGremlin

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Thankyou @Shaz51 ❤️

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No @Shaz51 we have one more night's stay and then the family are meeting us here and we're spreading my Nan and Grandad's ashes on the beach tomorrow.

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Ohh hugs 🫂 @NightFury , sending you lots of understanding hugs ❤️

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Hugs @Shaz51 @MissGremlin

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@NightFury i hope everything goes as ok as it can tomorrow sweetheart.

I'm sending you all the love, strength and hugs i have to give ❤️.

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Thank you, my friend @MissGremlin

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Just finished writing a poem so wanted to share. To stay within guidelines I'll say I'm safe for now. My love and hugs to all ❤️.

I walked alone in the darkness I could

not fight,

hoping for someone to turn on the light.

The world felt heavy, and my strength grew thin,

a war inside that alone I couldn't win.

I reached out and every word I said was true,

but you didn't seem to think that I would follow through.

Now the reality is that I'm gone,

maybe if you'd helped, I could've held on.

Now I look down as you openly pray,

I hear every word you begin to say.

You ask God how you're meant to be strong,

when living in a world without me feels wrong.

I'm sorry for the hurt that I’ve brought,

but if only you knew how hard I fought.

The pain inside was too much for me,

but now from that I am completely free.

I see the tears you try to hide away,

and how you struggle to face each day.

You thought my cries for help were a lie,

before the night I finally said goodbye.

Please know I left because it was too late,

it was simply that this had to be my fate.

The weight I carried grew too much to bear,

and some days it felt like no one was there.

I’m gone from sight, my battles done,

but still my love shines like the sun.

Hold me close when the night is long,

a silent presence, steady and strong.

If you could hear me now, I'd ask you this,

don't carry all the blame for what you miss.

Just hold the ones you love a little tight,

and listen if they say they're losing the fight.

@AlwaysMyself @ENKELI @Jynx @rav3n @AuntGlow

Only tagging a couple as I know this could be triggering

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Thinking of you @MissGremlin

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