Life can be a Pain

Thanks @Zoe7

It means a lot - I have been having an easier time this year - I think having support on these Forums as been part of it - I feel as if people really care and previously I have not had so many people taking the time to be a part of it

Of course we have had a lot of sunny days in Melbourne this year - which is always nice - aw - it's beautiful - much better than nice.

How are you doing? I know it is hard for you to express yourself - I think of you - and hope things are not too hard - and that you get some sleep

Dec

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope

Little messages convey a great deal and help a lot

Dec💖❣

I'm ok @Owlunar

I do care and I know it is probably a lot tougher for you than you let on also. I do remember our long conversations quite a while back on what happened with your son and your incredible 'action' around the whole 'system' - I have not forgotten that. I do admire what you did and wish it had been so much better for you both then and now.

If you need a chat over the next couple of weeks (and anytime really) give me a shout out - here as an ear (eyes) or just someone to sit with you...

Zoe

Hi @Owlunar As I had to abandon our jammies day to do 'stuff' (arghhh) I thought I would drop in a couple of presents I picked up for you in my travels today for our next jammies day.... you can choose...

Dont.worry @Owlunar, I haven't peeled off pj's today, walking.with ya. My dog likes having someone to smooch up to be warm most the day. Why are you having a pj day? You unwell? (missed that sorry), I'm just really down. But as you point out - we're past the Winter Soltsis🎉🎆. Thanks for ed re Croc shoes. I thought they were shoes made from crocodile skin lol.
Hope you're holding up OK? Stay strong 💜🌿🌷

HI @Former-Member@Zoe7@Faith-and-Hope@Shaz51

Yesterday started okay - I was still in my jammies and working here early when I heard this loud machinery and got dressed and went out to see what it was. Someone had a chipper in here and it was so loud it hurt my ears. The day fell apart after that

I sent an email to my rellies in Hobart - I haven't heard from them in 6 months and I can go to Hobart and visit them briefly while I stay somewhere else - but for some reason it's not working - and I did some other things but it turned into one of the horrible days I have and I am no good to anyone when I feel that bad

And as much as I could like to write about it - when I feel like it I am not really any good at it - I can only talk about it after because I cry and stuff up my glasses and can't read the screen and I felt really ill. I went to sleep watching M*A*S*H and felt better after that - and I feel better this morning

Anyway - Lapses - I would never wear crocodile skin products - they are not my thing and also I feel for the crocodiles being killed for their skins - not good - even though I would not care if there was no crocodiles - but laugh - yes - I do wear plastic crocs at home - they are light weight and last forever

Today has to be a better day

Zoe - yes - I know you would listen - most people would - I can talk about what happens later but it is so complex - my whole life is complicated - I guess that's why I like to be alone in my own place now - I was very unhappy for a long time trying to live with other people and life alone is something I am used to now - I don't even want anyone around when I am feeling bleak

But I do appreciate other people caring even if it happens after the bad day - but yesterday was the worst day I have had for a long time

But now it's Friday - and today I have my toe operated on - and I am not looking forward to it particularly but it hurts so I will be glad to have it done

Dec

@Owlunar

I love the owl jammies @Zoe7

Actually I don't have jammies - I wear a t-shirt and undies to bed and when I get up I am having jammie time until I take my dressing gown off

I don't go to a shopping mall often but my case worker is organising someone to take me next week - I need someone with me - when people mill around or walk looking in a different direction to the one they are walking in - I get hyper-vigilent - I have been knocked over and need paramedics to get me to my feet and I hate this attention - they want to take me to hospital but there is nothing they can do for chronic pain there - I want to go home and if I have a driver then it's not a problem - if I am alone it is

So jammies are well down the list when it comes to clothes - but I do go to Rivers at times - they have great shirts there - I feel okay in a quiet store - people behaving uinpredictably is not a good thing for me

Dec

Gotta get some owl jammies next week at the shopping mall