Life can be a Pain

Thanks for the update @Owlunar , I hope the pain specialist can help and bring you some relief. Back trouble is right up there in the discomfort scale ughghgh 🙂

Thanks @Gazza75

Really up there - changing specialists over such sensitive issues has to be hard for anyone

I have to see a psychologist in November - I would rather not but it is part of the change-over deal - I just looked - only 3 weeks - I could wait forever but I need the letter I hope this woman will write saying I am stable.

The past can stick with us in a bad way and I was in a very bad place 33+ years ago and it took me a long time to get over all that happened then. That sort of chaos and stick with us like glue on our fingers for a long time - I do not want to have my pain blamed on what happened such a long time ago again but I guess I need to see a professional about that

One thing we cannot change and that is the past - all we can change is our attitude about it - I hope I have.

Thanks Gazza

Dec

Your welcome @Owlunar 🙂

The past can definitely stick to us in a bad way.. I've been feeling that a lot since my brother had his mishap. It's certainly altered my life more than it should have.

I'm sure the lady will oblige and give you the letter once you have spoken to her. Sometimes we make things bigger in our minds/heads than they really are. It's easy to overthink some things.

I can't believe just how quckly the year has gone. Can't say I'm exactly looking forward to christmas other than having a brief period off work. Last Xmas wasn't exactly good, and this one is only going to be worse for Me with the SIL. What do you normally do?

Hi again @Gazza75

Christmas - oh yes - we are having another one - this year has gone by really fast.

Last year my cat died and my daughter had a hysterectomy and along with my son's birth and adoption dates and my the anniversaries of my parents' passing it really had it's moments - this year we can rejoiced that my son-in-law is still with us after an emergency open-heart operation. That was really a number to give us all bad moments. But we still have him thank God for that

This year it depends on what my grand-daughter will be doing - she may choose to come to Melbourne - I hope so. If she doesn't I am likely to go up to the Sunshine Coast and brave the airport there and see her for a few days - I will stay at a hotel though - I think landing on our relatives is a bit rough for all concerned - in my family anyway - and I like my space too.

Otherwise my daughter and SIL will probably see his kids and their kids and enjoy the fun and games of the 7 great-grandchildren I seem to have. They get a year older every year I see them - amazing how many there are. They all call me Granma but I am not sure they know of where I fit in the family. It will be fun - and on Christmas Day my daughter and SIL will come here for brunch and pressies which will be quiet and friendly

I thought I might go away myself in January but maybe I will leave it until February or March - I like Lakes Entrance - I actually love it there - for some reason it feels like home - I have been there so often during my life I have forgotten - or maybe Tasmania.

One thing which is really great - when it comes to going away I can please myself - and seeing my family at Christmas is really great

About the past - the events of 1986 were really bad and I just had things happen and didn't cause any of it. I can't change it. Those things were serious and involved the death of my son and I will always be unhappy about that and why not? Recently I had it said to me that it was making my pain worse and I do not understand how that could possibly be the case - I know that earlier this year I realised that the whole issues was complex and more happened in that time than the death.

Some things we just have to accept - learning that is a process.

Thanks Gazza - I hope things between you and your brother continue to improve

Dec

@Owlunar 💕💕💕💐💐

Thinking of you @Owlunar ❤️❤️
little A is playing with her baby in the pram. I'm going to miss her so much when they move out

It's so good to have such support here. I often feel so isolated and alone by myself and my problems. The end of the year is a particularly triggering time for me. The stimulation of all the festivities really freak me out.

@BlueBay @Decadian @Maggie @Owlunar @Gazza75 hugs to you all, and anyone else I've missed.

thinking of you @Owlunar . It's not easy having chronic pain which is severely affected by the weather.

@Owlunar ❤

@BPDSurvivor I find the festival season very difficult also. Hugs to you. 💕💕💕